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TAMAR

Tamar-Episode 17

©Amah’s Heart

Everything was going well in Chakan’s house, he has a big house too, but his Father’s house was bigger, he also has a flower court, where I usually sit out,
Today Zity went out with Okra, she hardly stays back home this days, always attending one party or the other with Okra, I have heard she and Chakan quarrying over her constant outing and I heard her telling him
“Every day is one outing or the other, can’t you sit at home, okra is taking you to all the whole party in this kingdom, I don’t feel comfortable with this your new picked habit, I don’t Zity, you are a pregnant woman, you are suppose to sit at home not partying all the time, you didn’t go partying in my father’s house, now you feel so free to do as you please…
“So because I got married to you I can’t go out again, Okra invited me to Mecano’s party, he is celebrating his gladiator fest, he invited okra and she asked me to go with her, my pregnancy is not yet obvious, nobody knows yet I’m pregnant, even if they finds out I have nothing to be ashamed off, I wasn’t free with your father or even comfortable to go out, or maybe I was still acting childish but not again, I’m wise, and this is the life I have always wanted, I want to experience things, and live my life to the fullest, and sitting at home with you can also be boring, do not try to cage me because I’m married to you, Okra is also married yet her husband doesn’t cage her, she is free to do as she likes and here you are complaining, acting like a child, please let me be, I’m living my life, I’m not the only pregnant married woman in this kingdom… Live your life let me live mine
I was always asked to stay back anytime she goes with okra to her numerous party, Chakan was home in his chamber that day, I sat at the flower court, it was deep evening, night was fast approaching, Zity was not back, she sometimes comes back late with Okra’s chariot men, who brings her home
I sat there as I pray for God’s protection over her, I also pray that God will give me wisdom at all time to know what to do,
I thought of Adolfo, I wondered how he is coping with life, Eura was still serving in his house, if I’m free tomorrow I Will go and check them and know how they are doing
Is being a while I visited Rhonda and her kids, I don’t have enough money to take to her, I only have five shelling which can not do much, may be I will just visit like that to just check up and to give her the little with me,
Chakan doesn’t give shelling to his household slaves like Lord Reese does everyday, and Adolfo has given me one hundred and fifty shelling before which I took to Rhonda, Lord Reese gives all the house hold servants shellings everyday and Abel sometimes gives me money whenever he returns from his journey, I miss him, and also Lord Reese and Lady phin, I thought of Vim and wondered if he was back from his journey, I guess he got tired if me avoiding him and decided to move on, I think of the kiss in his chamber and his word “Tamar I love you”
I felt goose bomb all over me as Abel’s word began to echo in my ears as if he was sitting right there with me
“The heart of men holds deep thoughts like the ocean current, but even in our thoughts God sees it all, even before we say it out, God already knows it, nothing is hidden before God, he picked what is best for us and brings it to past, whatever that is pure and perfect, whatever that is good and not evil think only on those things, light and darkness has no friendship, let the light of God shine through you to the world Tamar…
I swallowed hard as I remembered Abel’s word to me, I quickly sat up and decided to go inside, Abel’s word makes me shut off Vim in my mind instead of dwelling on a thought which is impure I decided to say a word of prayer instead.
I stood up and quietly went inside, everywhere seem quiet, Chakan does not have much slaves only five of which Shamara was inclusive, two boys and three girls. If I’m counted among them, I Will make them six, I’m Zity’s personal maid so they don’t count me among Chakan’s servant, There is nothing much to do around here, most time the servants stays in their outhouse,
Everywhere was quiet, I was only hearing murmuring noise coming from Chakan’s chamber, I wanted to ignore but something pushed me forward, I was wondering who he was talking to, Zity was not back from her party with okra, the slaves were in the out house, so who’s he talking with or could he be talking only with himself, his chamber was locked, I heard a female voice, I wasn’t sure because it was all a murmur, no audible word, I couldn’t just make sense from what Chakan and who ever that was with him were saying,
as I stood there the door began to unlock and I quickly hide, and was looking from my hideout to see what was going on, I saw Shamara and my heart Skip, Chakan came out and when she was about to run back to the out house Chakan drew her to himself and pinned her to the wall and started kissing her
“Please stop, your Wife Will soon be back, I don’t want her trouble, haven’t you gotten enough of me inside, let’s not do this here, somebody may see us, her personal maid is sitting at the flower court, she may decide to come in and see us..please I don’t want trouble.
” nobody will give you trouble, Zity won’t give you trouble because she doesn’t really have to know, and Tamar likes sitting by the flower court until her mistress comes home, so Tamar is not coming in, the other servant has no business here until they are called upon, and I promise to protect you, don’t be afraid, I want you always Shamara, you are so Sweet please let me caress you a little before you go…
“We have to be careful, I want you more than you want me, I love the way you make out with me in your chamber, I wish I’m your wife, having you as I please, I’m only a servant here and I don’t want to run into trouble because of our Wild feeling for each other, you already know your wife does not like me because I’m more beautiful than her and she feels threatened by that, I really want to thread safe where you are, and we can only do this when she’s not around or you can pursue her and make me your wife, if you really want me, this hide and seek affair that we are having, I’m sincerely tired of it..
” Shamara, that’s enough, Zity remains my wife, despite she has being getting me angry this days, she is carrying my child too, I want you to understand that, let’s not act like kids, I wants you every second that Zity is not around and I know you want me too, return to your outhouse Will see you tomorrow, please don’t fail me, I’m all yours when Zity is out…
I watched as he kissed her one more time and Shamara responded without resistant and ran off immediately a chariot came in with Zity, Chakan returned to his chamber and I came out of my hiding place in shock to go and meet Zity, who seem so cheerful from her outing and she was smelling of wine, I lead her inside to her own chamber and put off her shoe, I soaked her legs inside warm water and wash them off, she said she was too tired to bath, so I put off her cloths and cleaned up her body while she doze off immediately her body hits the bed, I weaved back her hair into a ponytail and covered her up while she sleeps, Chakan came and stood by the door of Zity’s chamber, I felt so bad that he is having affair with Shamara, I wish Zity will stop following okra everywhere and stay back home,
“What is wrong with her…she has slept off again, is she drunk, is she alright…
” she is fine my Lord, I guess she took little wine which she’s not use to and….and felt so tired…but she’s fine and will come to chamber your tomorrow except you want to stay with her here to keep her warm through the night, she is cold and will love you to put a hand around her..
“She forgot that she’s carrying a child, how can she be taking strong wine in this her condition, I’m going back to my chamber, she want to live a free life then is fine by me, we Will all live the way she wants, I got no worries, I’m more concerned about my child that she is carrying, I just pray to the gods that nothing happens to my unborn child, Zity’s careless living should not dare affect my child or she will be very sorry, both she and okra her friend. Two stupid people, Who go about living anyhow like wayward women of this kingdom, forgetting that they are married, I’m off to My chamber…
He turned and Left angrily, I sat there staring at Zity as she snores on the bed and wondering how to reach her and to make her listen, following okra will not lead her to anywhere, okra is a road to nowhere, I wish she will realize that before is late.
I made my bed at another end and lay awake most part of the night as I kept imagining Chakan and Shamara, and wondered what Zity Will do if she finds out that her loving husband is having affair with his maid, Shamara who want him to chase Zity away so that he can marry her,
That was pure wickedness, how could Shamara be doing that, Zity has fear about her now they are coming to reality,
Okra us leading Zity astray while Shamara wants to take her husband from her and Zity is too blind to see all the things happening around her
I just silently pray it Will not be too late by the time she finds out.

TAMAR

Tamar-Episode 16

©Amah’s Heart

Zity and Adolfo were seriously working on their separation, they have both gone to see Lord Reese and Lady Phin, I did not go with them, Zity asked me to stay back at Adolfo’s house, and I did, they went their twice and I guess her parents later agreed, back at Adolfo’s house I watch as Zity was always acting harsh to Adolfo, who never paid her any attention, I felt pity for him.
one day I decided to speak to Zity
“My lady, are you sure you want to do this, have you thought it through…is it really what you want…please my lady, take it easy on Adolfo, you know he lost his wife many years ago, and now you are leaving him, he will feel like a failure, make him understand why you have to leave in a peaceful and understandable way, not in fight or trouble…it will make him have a sense of belonging…but if you still want to try and make it work with him, Adolfo will be so happy and you will see the good man in him and love him, I don’t want you to make a mistake, that was why I asked if this is really what you want…
“Yes, is what I want Tamar, you shouldn’t even be asking this because you know how much I have suffered in this marriage, is time to be free. Time to be with the man I really want, Chakan is all I want Tamar, not his father, I told mother and father they will never talk me out of it, I want to be free from Adolfo, I don’t love him and I can never love him, I need to breath and live the life I have always wanted, why do you even care what Adolfo feels or thinks, you should be more worried about me not Adolfo, I’m your mistress, so whatever I do you have to support me, either good or bad because you belong to me not to my parents or Adolfo, do you understand me Tamar…
“Yes my lady.
I went to see Adolfo in his study one day, and he was talking and laughing with Eura, he seem to be himself, as he speak with Eura, he looks happy not the worried man he use to be, since I came back he seem so unbothered with Zity attitude, I was glad that Eura brought back the sparkle in his eyes,
They were happy to see me as I joined them, and we talked and laughed, I later told Eura that I will like to speak to Adolfo alone and she bow and excused us
“You seem so happy Adolfo, you are not really bothered that Zity is leaving you…you don’t look sober at all..
“life present choices for us to make, mine was either to be sad, think about the unfortunate happenings in my life, think about my late wife, who died leaving me shattered and after years of being alone or to think about now, and how to find joy again even if is in a strange place, Tamar, when I decided to marry again, it was not just to marry but also to have a friend in my wife, a companion, a helper and supporter, I ended up with a young girl who has so much passion for life and want to live it to the fullest, a young girl whose parents forced into settling with me and I made her look miserable, I ended up with a lady who doesn’t like or want me like I do, I wanted it to work, I wanted her to see me as both her husband and a friend, and to respect me like she will do to her father, but I see that can never happen, I was already loosing my mind after loosing my son that she bore for me, I wish he was alive maybe he would have united I and Zity and make Zity see reason to love me, but I can’t force her ,Tamar I can’t do that anymore, she has made her decision to go and I have made mine to accept and be happy…
I was quiet as I wonder if Adolfo knows who Zity was planning to leave him for, has he found out, I wondered if Adolfo knows that it was his son chakan that has always being Zity’s wish, will Adolfo agree if he finds out, I also wondered if Chakan has accepted to marry his father’s ex wife, so many things was going through my mind as Adolfo speaks so I asked
“Do you know if Zity is planning to marry another man, or she just want to go back to her parent’s house, I mean…do you think she has another man…
“hahahaha, you are funny Tamar, you are Zity’s personal maid, you know what goes in and out around her, I suppose to be asking you that not you asking me, but I understand that you probably did not want to expose your mistress to any danger, and unfortunately Zity wouldn’t care if I know or not, but I do know, we all know who she wants, I knew it was because of her Chakan moved out, I knew she wanted my son, I started noticing when Chakan was still living here before he moved out, Zity always wanted to be around him, she ignores me whenever Chakan is around, she always want to be seen with him, she goes to his chamber uninvited, I have hard them argue over something which I refuse to pay attention to, is better I don’t listen to what may kill me, I refuse to know or believe that Chakan was having something with her, and when Chakan suddenly moved out I knew it was because of Zity, my son respects me so much and that’s is more reason I trust him, so he came down one day and I asked him, he stammered a bit, he didn’t want to say but I assured him it was fine, and he told me that him and Zity use to be lovers, he was the one Zity was coming to look for in the estate back then when I saw her, I asked him why he didn’t tell me all this while, despite I had this dream and my late wife came and said she will lead me to the light but if Chakan has told me about her I wouldn’t have put my leg, I know Zity’s father and mother will not want her to marry a younger man because of the general believe that the young will not value their wife but those with experience will, people give out their daughter to men older than them with at least ten years, so Chakan wouldn’t have gotten a chance to be with Zity. Later, i thought Zity has forgotten about Chakan and will come around but she never did, there was a day my son came and we talked at the garden and Zity brought drink only for my son, I had mine beside me already, but with the special way she treated the cup of drink by keeping it far from me it calls for questioning, but I did not think of it, I asked Chakan to go get me something inside and before he came back I have already finished his drink, which taste normal, I can’t forget the way I felt that day, after sometime, my body began to shake, but I held unto myself thinking I have had too much to drink, Chakan later left and I felt blown out of myself, my bladder was so hot I couldn’t even control myself, it was unlike me, the only thing I was thinking at that time was Zity, I wanted Zity, I needed Zity, I was going Crazy, as I ran to her chamber without thinking and…and forcefully lay with her without her consent, I swear to the gods of this land, I did not just know what happen to me, and I felt so bad when I got myself, she was weeping silently, I felt like beating myself, I felt stupid, forcefully making out with a woman, wife or not wife is totally wrong, so i apologise with everything possible, begging her to forgive me and she later did, so one day after months of this incident, I started thinking of the whole thing again, how I manage to fell into such act, and I traced it to the drink that was meant for Chakan which I drank, I just couldn’t think of anything else, I couldn’t think of anything that will make me behave the way I did that day but even at that. I decided to waved it off, counting on the impossibility of Zity doing such, she may hate me but she will not want to put love potion for my son to lay with her, It was impossible, where will she even get the portion when she hardly go out, she only have the merchant’s wife who comes around and they became close friends, well I took it off my chest, so recently as everything keep going bad instead of getting better between I and Zity, one day she came to my study, I was happy thinking she has come to check up on me which was unlike her, she told me she wanted out of the marriage, I pulse for sometime as she curse and swear that if I don’t let her go she will kill herself, she was shouting out on how she hates me and all that, she boldly told me she wanted to be with Chakan, that she and Chakan were meant to be before I came to marry her and has made her life miserable, she said she wanted chakan and anybody that oppose it, she will kill herself or run away, that chakan also wants her but has kept away because she got married to me, she kept talking angrily and i didn’t argue or say a word, Zity was only being childish and I totally understand and I wanted her to be with the person she said she wanted not withstanding that Chakan is my son, if Chakan still wants her then they should be with each other, she was surprise I said okay, I told her we will do the normal separation terms and she can be free again to be with whoever she chose to be with, she was happy at the end before leaving, I called my son and told him my decision of letting Zity go, I asked him if he still want Zity and he was shock at my question, I told him we are separating for good, I want her to be happy and I equally deserve to be happy, he was quiet for sometime as I urged him not to be afraid to speak and he said he doesn’t really want her, he has already forgotten whatever he and Zity had before, after she got married to me, I told him that he should try and see if it will work out between them since Zity wants him and made it known to me without shame, he said okay, he will do that….and here we are, by next week Zity will finally be free, I went to the parents the other day and spoke with them about separating from their daughter and they were shock, they sent for Zity and she came and insisted on what she wanted and lord Reese and Lady Phin apologise to me and I told them is all for the best, I watch as they try to talk to Zity but she was stiff-necked and told them they can’t change her mind, they made a choice for her which she regretted ever listening to them, she said she will never allow them to do that and that her decision will stand this time, and at the end they let her be. So once we are legally free from the marital vow we took she can be with Chakan as she has always wanted…
I thanked Adolfo for sharing the whole thing with me, I don’t know what will happen with him or if he will marry again but I’m certain that Zity was making a wrong choice, Adolfo was a good man, who loved her, I silently pray that Chakan will genuinely love Zity like his father did.
A day came and I followed Zity to Chakan’s house, I noticed that Zity has being going to his place even when I was back to Lord Reese house, Chakan seem pleasant to see her as we were ushered in by one of his slaves, the kitchen maid brought different delicacy for Zity, I saw one cleaning some sculpture on Chakan’s open chamber, the slave girl was tall and beautiful, and Zity felt threatened,
“When did you buy this one, she was not here the last time I came…
“four weeks ago, she was here, you probably did not see her or notice her, she is a tivi girl…is there a problem…
“Must you buy a tivi girl, they are usually lazy, they only knows how to look beautiful and flex their waist up and down seductively, I don’t like this one…sell her off,
“Why, why should I sell her when she has done nothing wrong…just because you don’t like her, Shamara is not what you take her to be. Take a grip at yourself Zity and stop acting like a spoilt child, this is my house…
“is also going to be my house soon…stop making me look like a stranger..
I don’t like the way you talk to me, is it a crime that I love you…what is even wrong with you, we are not married yet and you are already calling me spoilt child, what kind of man are you, I have always wanted you Chakan but your father came and overshadowed everything, he made my life a living hell, all I think of everyday is you…Adolfo was driving me crazy and..
“Zity, Zity that’s enough, enough of all this nonsense, you didn’t want my father, you made that obvious and we all get it, now we are getting back together, just like you have always wanted, learn to respect my father when you talk about him, learn to show some respect, he is still my father and will always be, I will not tolerate any insult from you, I am not so petty like my father you better know that…
I watched as Zity eye got soiled with tears and she wanted to cry and Chakan has to go and pet her again, I excused myself and went outside, and waited outside for a very long time and even night came and settled and Zity did not show up, at the end I have to ask Shamara were I can lay my head for the night since my mistress was here and Shamara showed me where to pass the night.
The following day Zity came out and we left,
after two weeks she found out she was pregnant for Chakan even before her wedding. She was finally separated from Adolfo and hurried up with the small union with Chakan, it wasn’t much gathering, it was just the family coming together to bind them in marriage and they were married.
I know it will not be all rosy with Zity, I know Chakan easily get offended and Zity will always want to cry to get his attention, but it may not work for her always, it was obvious that Chakan doesn’t love her like before, Zity still feels threatened with Shamara, Okra still comes around to Zity’s new home, I know things will get bad, but I’m asking God to help Zity in all of this, and also to help me.
now she is with the man she has always wanted to be with and she is already carrying his child, which is few weeks old, and Zity feel good with everything except when she sees Shamara pass,
I may not know what the future hold for everyone of them but I plead with God to be in the center of it, and to help me in all the trouble that is yet to come.

TAMAR

Tamar-Episode 16

©Amah’s Heart

Zity and Adolfo were seriously working on their separation, they have both gone to see Lord Reese and Lady Phin, I did not go with them, Zity asked me to stay back at Adolfo’s house, and I did, they went their twice and I guess her parents later agreed, back at Adolfo’s house I watch as Zity was always acting harsh to Adolfo, who never paid her any attention, I felt pity for him.
one day I decided to speak to Zity
“My lady, are you sure you want to do this, have you thought it through…is it really what you want…please my lady, take it easy on Adolfo, you know he lost his wife many years ago, and now you are leaving him, he will feel like a failure, make him understand why you have to leave in a peaceful and understandable way, not in fight or trouble…it will make him have a sense of belonging…but if you still want to try and make it work with him, Adolfo will be so happy and you will see the good man in him and love him, I don’t want you to make a mistake, that was why I asked if this is really what you want…
“Yes, is what I want Tamar, you shouldn’t even be asking this because you know how much I have suffered in this marriage, is time to be free. Time to be with the man I really want, Chakan is all I want Tamar, not his father, I told mother and father they will never talk me out of it, I want to be free from Adolfo, I don’t love him and I can never love him, I need to breath and live the life I have always wanted, why do you even care what Adolfo feels or thinks, you should be more worried about me not Adolfo, I’m your mistress, so whatever I do you have to support me, either good or bad because you belong to me not to my parents or Adolfo, do you understand me Tamar…
“Yes my lady.
I went to see Adolfo in his study one day, and he was talking and laughing with Eura, he seem to be himself, as he speak with Eura, he looks happy not the worried man he use to be, since I came back he seem so unbothered with Zity attitude, I was glad that Eura brought back the sparkle in his eyes,
They were happy to see me as I joined them, and we talked and laughed, I later told Eura that I will like to speak to Adolfo alone and she bow and excused us
“You seem so happy Adolfo, you are not really bothered that Zity is leaving you…you don’t look sober at all..
“life present choices for us to make, mine was either to be sad, think about the unfortunate happenings in my life, think about my late wife, who died leaving me shattered and after years of being alone or to think about now, and how to find joy again even if is in a strange place, Tamar, when I decided to marry again, it was not just to marry but also to have a friend in my wife, a companion, a helper and supporter, I ended up with a young girl who has so much passion for life and want to live it to the fullest, a young girl whose parents forced into settling with me and I made her look miserable, I ended up with a lady who doesn’t like or want me like I do, I wanted it to work, I wanted her to see me as both her husband and a friend, and to respect me like she will do to her father, but I see that can never happen, I was already loosing my mind after loosing my son that she bore for me, I wish he was alive maybe he would have united I and Zity and make Zity see reason to love me, but I can’t force her ,Tamar I can’t do that anymore, she has made her decision to go and I have made mine to accept and be happy…
I was quiet as I wonder if Adolfo knows who Zity was planning to leave him for, has he found out, I wondered if Adolfo knows that it was his son chakan that has always being Zity’s wish, will Adolfo agree if he finds out, I also wondered if Chakan has accepted to marry his father’s ex wife, so many things was going through my mind as Adolfo speaks so I asked
“Do you know if Zity is planning to marry another man, or she just want to go back to her parent’s house, I mean…do you think she has another man…
“hahahaha, you are funny Tamar, you are Zity’s personal maid, you know what goes in and out around her, I suppose to be asking you that not you asking me, but I understand that you probably did not want to expose your mistress to any danger, and unfortunately Zity wouldn’t care if I know or not, but I do know, we all know who she wants, I knew it was because of her Chakan moved out, I knew she wanted my son, I started noticing when Chakan was still living here before he moved out, Zity always wanted to be around him, she ignores me whenever Chakan is around, she always want to be seen with him, she goes to his chamber uninvited, I have hard them argue over something which I refuse to pay attention to, is better I don’t listen to what may kill me, I refuse to know or believe that Chakan was having something with her, and when Chakan suddenly moved out I knew it was because of Zity, my son respects me so much and that’s is more reason I trust him, so he came down one day and I asked him, he stammered a bit, he didn’t want to say but I assured him it was fine, and he told me that him and Zity use to be lovers, he was the one Zity was coming to look for in the estate back then when I saw her, I asked him why he didn’t tell me all this while, despite I had this dream and my late wife came and said she will lead me to the light but if Chakan has told me about her I wouldn’t have put my leg, I know Zity’s father and mother will not want her to marry a younger man because of the general believe that the young will not value their wife but those with experience will, people give out their daughter to men older than them with at least ten years, so Chakan wouldn’t have gotten a chance to be with Zity. Later, i thought Zity has forgotten about Chakan and will come around but she never did, there was a day my son came and we talked at the garden and Zity brought drink only for my son, I had mine beside me already, but with the special way she treated the cup of drink by keeping it far from me it calls for questioning, but I did not think of it, I asked Chakan to go get me something inside and before he came back I have already finished his drink, which taste normal, I can’t forget the way I felt that day, after sometime, my body began to shake, but I held unto myself thinking I have had too much to drink, Chakan later left and I felt blown out of myself, my bladder was so hot I couldn’t even control myself, it was unlike me, the only thing I was thinking at that time was Zity, I wanted Zity, I needed Zity, I was going Crazy, as I ran to her chamber without thinking and…and forcefully lay with her without her consent, I swear to the gods of this land, I did not just know what happen to me, and I felt so bad when I got myself, she was weeping silently, I felt like beating myself, I felt stupid, forcefully making out with a woman, wife or not wife is totally wrong, so i apologise with everything possible, begging her to forgive me and she later did, so one day after months of this incident, I started thinking of the whole thing again, how I manage to fell into such act, and I traced it to the drink that was meant for Chakan which I drank, I just couldn’t think of anything else, I couldn’t think of anything that will make me behave the way I did that day but even at that. I decided to waved it off, counting on the impossibility of Zity doing such, she may hate me but she will not want to put love potion for my son to lay with her, It was impossible, where will she even get the portion when she hardly go out, she only have the merchant’s wife who comes around and they became close friends, well I took it off my chest, so recently as everything keep going bad instead of getting better between I and Zity, one day she came to my study, I was happy thinking she has come to check up on me which was unlike her, she told me she wanted out of the marriage, I pulse for sometime as she curse and swear that if I don’t let her go she will kill herself, she was shouting out on how she hates me and all that, she boldly told me she wanted to be with Chakan, that she and Chakan were meant to be before I came to marry her and has made her life miserable, she said she wanted chakan and anybody that oppose it, she will kill herself or run away, that chakan also wants her but has kept away because she got married to me, she kept talking angrily and i didn’t argue or say a word, Zity was only being childish and I totally understand and I wanted her to be with the person she said she wanted not withstanding that Chakan is my son, if Chakan still wants her then they should be with each other, she was surprise I said okay, I told her we will do the normal separation terms and she can be free again to be with whoever she chose to be with, she was happy at the end before leaving, I called my son and told him my decision of letting Zity go, I asked him if he still want Zity and he was shock at my question, I told him we are separating for good, I want her to be happy and I equally deserve to be happy, he was quiet for sometime as I urged him not to be afraid to speak and he said he doesn’t really want her, he has already forgotten whatever he and Zity had before, after she got married to me, I told him that he should try and see if it will work out between them since Zity wants him and made it known to me without shame, he said okay, he will do that….and here we are, by next week Zity will finally be free, I went to the parents the other day and spoke with them about separating from their daughter and they were shock, they sent for Zity and she came and insisted on what she wanted and lord Reese and Lady Phin apologise to me and I told them is all for the best, I watch as they try to talk to Zity but she was stiff-necked and told them they can’t change her mind, they made a choice for her which she regretted ever listening to them, she said she will never allow them to do that and that her decision will stand this time, and at the end they let her be. So once we are legally free from the marital vow we took she can be with Chakan as she has always wanted…
I thanked Adolfo for sharing the whole thing with me, I don’t know what will happen with him or if he will marry again but I’m certain that Zity was making a wrong choice, Adolfo was a good man, who loved her, I silently pray that Chakan will genuinely love Zity like his father did.
A day came and I followed Zity to Chakan’s house, I noticed that Zity has being going to his place even when I was back to Lord Reese house, Chakan seem pleasant to see her as we were ushered in by one of his slaves, the kitchen maid brought different delicacy for Zity, I saw one cleaning some sculpture on Chakan’s open chamber, the slave girl was tall and beautiful, and Zity felt threatened,
“When did you buy this one, she was not here the last time I came…
“four weeks ago, she was here, you probably did not see her or notice her, she is a tivi girl…is there a problem…
“Must you buy a tivi girl, they are usually lazy, they only knows how to look beautiful and flex their waist up and down seductively, I don’t like this one…sell her off,
“Why, why should I sell her when she has done nothing wrong…just because you don’t like her, Shamara is not what you take her to be. Take a grip at yourself Zity and stop acting like a spoilt child, this is my house…
“is also going to be my house soon…stop making me look like a stranger..
I don’t like the way you talk to me, is it a crime that I love you…what is even wrong with you, we are not married yet and you are already calling me spoilt child, what kind of man are you, I have always wanted you Chakan but your father came and overshadowed everything, he made my life a living hell, all I think of everyday is you…Adolfo was driving me crazy and..
“Zity, Zity that’s enough, enough of all this nonsense, you didn’t want my father, you made that obvious and we all get it, now we are getting back together, just like you have always wanted, learn to respect my father when you talk about him, learn to show some respect, he is still my father and will always be, I will not tolerate any insult from you, I am not so petty like my father you better know that…
I watched as Zity eye got soiled with tears and she wanted to cry and Chakan has to go and pet her again, I excused myself and went outside, and waited outside for a very long time and even night came and settled and Zity did not show up, at the end I have to ask Shamara were I can lay my head for the night since my mistress was here and Shamara showed me where to pass the night.
The following day Zity came out and we left,
after two weeks she found out she was pregnant for Chakan even before her wedding. She was finally separated from Adolfo and hurried up with the small union with Chakan, it wasn’t much gathering, it was just the family coming together to bind them in marriage and they were married.
I know it will not be all rosy with Zity, I know Chakan easily get offended and Zity will always want to cry to get his attention, but it may not work for her always, it was obvious that Chakan doesn’t love her like before, Zity still feels threatened with Shamara, Okra still comes around to Zity’s new home, I know things will get bad, but I’m asking God to help Zity in all of this, and also to help me.
now she is with the man she has always wanted to be with and she is already carrying his child, which is few weeks old, and Zity feel good with everything except when she sees Shamara pass,
I may not know what the future hold for everyone of them but I plead with God to be in the center of it, and to help me in all the trouble that is yet to come.

TAMAR

Tamar-Episode 15

©Amah’s Heart

The day went with speed I kept avoiding Vim, when I see him coming I will take another road, I stayed mostly in my room, and try not to come in contact with him, my heart began to skip anytime I see him,
With the new realization that Vim loves me and kissed me first time in my life I was still in shock of that, anytime I think of it my heart beat increase, I could not concentrate in my prayers any more, whenever I start praying I will get distracted as my mind wanders around Vim,
when I was summoned to talk to Lord Reese and lady Phin about God, I lost my courage unlike me, and I felt like I was not walking in accordance to God’s will anymore, I was dwelling on the fantasy on being kissed and hearing Vim say that he loves me,
I told lady Phin and lord Reese to give me time, I did not want to say things that are not in line with God, I wanted him to direct me and I don’t feel led by him to speak at that moment because I was having a mind battle which I try to keep in check, I didn’t want to loose focus on the task ahead but when I thought I’m focused and I see Vim coming my heart began to beat, I started wishing Abel was around, I wish he will come home I needed to get back to my old self which I was loosing…
One day I counted all the shelling I had with me, I gathered the money, even the one Abel gave me before he traveled, I put it in my small leather back and left very early the following morning to see Rhonda, I wanted to be back before sunset, I don’t want my absence to be noticed, so I hurried up and got there on time, Rhonda was happy to see me like I was to see her, the twins and little Jon were doing well, I couldn’t stay for long as I gave her the money which will go along way for her, she thanked me as usual and I left, I ran most path of the dusty road, and got home just in time, before the sun set and I quickly washed off the road dust before going to assist in the household chores
Vim tried severally to speak to me but I was always on a run as I tried everything possible to avoid him despite I wanted to hear him tell me he loves me again and also hold me in his arm and kissed me like he did that day but something bigger than me was keeping me in check, so I kept avoiding him.
I ran into Obia one of those days while trying to avoid Vim
“the devil has return to take what belongs to me and to cause confusion again…
“Obia, nice seeing you too…how are you doing…
“It will never be nice to meet the witch herself, what are you doing here again Tamar, I thought they sent you away to Zity, did you steal or slept with her husband that made her to send you back here, you are not suppose to be here now that I was already finding favor before the master and mistress, I told them I can heal Lord Reese and I was given a chance to try my sorcerer power and it was a big opportunity, he didn’t get better but I was still burning incenses and invoking more power for his healing when you just appeared like a witch and took my glory, and now he is well and they are giving you all the gratitude that I deserve, which was meant for me, I wanted to heal him so that I can also gain back the heart of Vim, maybe he will like me again and allow me into his chamber, and if I’m allowed even once in his chamber again he will certainly become mine, because I will not be going there alone, I will ask all the seducing spirit and add anything that will make him remain mine forever… I had plan for everything now you have come again to scatter it, you have come with your strange being that follows you around like an aura, I don’t like you and I will make sure I find away to poison the heart of the master and mistress against you…
“okay, good luck in doing that, but the last time I checked, when you tried to poison their heart towards me by telling them I stole shelling and gave it out to people in the street, not knowing it was my shelling, you tried with that but it did not work out fine for you, quit trying Obia, because you will always be a looser, I assure you that, for greater is he that is in me that he that is in the world, for i bear the mark of the Lord.. I’m untouchable for the enemy and so is everyone in this house hold, quit from your sorcerer power and embrace the light so that you may live and have peace, I’m not afraid of you, I told you the last time that your god is fake, invoke their power, cut you flesh and bleed for them do all you want but is will come to nothing, I have a big God who is Alpha and Omega, and he has given his children power over the wicked…and in his name I rebuke you and every power you are using to operate, it will be rendered useless in Jesus name…
“ooh…stop, stop it, do not dare say that again, so you are a Christian, I see, Venus the goddess of kindness has delivered you into my hand, you are now at my mercy, and I will not listen to your plea if you beg me not to tell anyone, I will expose you, I will tell the master and the mistress, and I will also tell Vim that you are a Christian, they don’t know they have a Christian living in their house, and the kingdom hates them, you have exposed yourself, and I will make sure you suffer and die…the master must know of it…
I looked unbothered as I turn and walk away, she stood, surprising looking at me that I did not even beg her not to tell anyone and neither was I scared as I walk away, she did not know that both the master, his wife and son already knows that, being a Christian is not a news to them any more, Obia will be making fool of herself again if she goes to them with that.
Abel came back briefly and my heart was glad, I couldn’t wait to tell him what was going on, it was as if God hard my prayer and brought him home,
As i sat at the fountain that day with Abel, my intention was to tell him my little trouble but I don’t know how to start with it, and how he will feel about Vim kissing me or declaring his feeling, I sort for a better way to start the conversation
“you seem to like the port more than here, aside the work what makes it so interesting, you hardly come home whenever you travel to the sea port, tell me about your work and how many workers are there…why do you like that place more…
“I wasn’t meant to come back now, I was suppose to be there for the next three month before coming home, the port is a very lovely place, despite I have a lot to do there, I have enough time for God and I don’t feel interrupted or scared when I pray to God, every body working there are all under me, they are up to thirty workers, mostly slaves and few free men, I organised and make sure everything is properly done, work is still ongoing there at this moment, I like looking out into the sea, I stay up late at night, looking towards heaven and shouting praises to Yahweh, many workers there have come to know the one true God through me, and I keep building them, God led me to baptist those who believe and accepted Christ as their Lord and savior, I baptist them right there in the water as they embrace the love of God, I have intend to stay for two or three more months before coming but God put the desire for me to come home, he wanted me home, I felt it, I was afraid that something bad happened because of the zeal, I thought of lord Reese as I constantly pray for him and every member of the household, and you were also in my thought Tamar, and when I came home everyone seem to be at peace, and I started wondering why God brought me home, i will stay one week here, waiting for the purpose while God asked me to come down to manifest, after which I have to go back, because I have sheep at the port I need to pasture, which simply means, the new believer need to be feed with the word, encouraged and guided so that they will not fall out of faith and return back to their old ways…
“Abel, I have something to tell you….Vim… Vim kissed me after revealing that he loves me…he kissed me so deeply that I loosed my gut, it was so sudden I never expected it…
I watched as Abel pulse and stared at me without a word, he breathed deeply, and look out straight into the fountain before saying
“How…how it did happen…and where did this happen…
“I just don’t know, everything was so quick…it happened in his chamber…
“Tamar…In his chamber, what where you doing there…talk to me…did he hurt you…
“he did not hurt me, he was angry that I was trying to tell his parents about Christ as they summoned me and asked me to tell them about my faith, Vim didn’t like that and when he saw me at the passage he asked me to come to his chamber of which I did and he told me of his fears, which is very dangerous for me to go talking about my faith to people, and I asked him why he was so worried about me then he said that…that is because he love me, it was a shock for me on hearing that, I was still trying to get out of the shock, he moved closer and kissed me and when I pulled out from his arm I ran off and i have being avoiding him ever since…ever since the incident I seem to lose my courage and he is always in my thought, I constantly think of him and the kiss, when his parents summon me to speak to them again I have to excuse myself after telling them to give me time to get ready of which they did, I feel distracted a little and sometime feel I’m not walking in line with the holy spirit…
“I understand, do not worry Tamar, I’m here for you, I see you are the main reason God brought me back, I just realized that now, you needed help that was why God sent me home, and I’m glad he did, you know why you are distracted after Vim declared his love and kissed you in his chamber and you got blown away with that, is just because you had a wall of worldly fantasy built up in your heart, you have wanted to know how it feels like to be loved or to be kissed, you have imagined what being married or cared for by a man will feel like, either you have centered your imagination around me or around another man and when Vim made his intention known and then seal it up with a kiss, you began to love the feeling and the sensation he gave you, you got carried away with it, now, you can’t serve God and mammon, you have to chose one, either to serve God withholding nothing, serving him like your whole being depends on it, serving even if the world is crumbling around you, serving him and taking charge over your body and thoughts, making it impossible for the enemy to penetrate in, is okay to stumble once in a while, which defines your imperfection, but when you stumble and fall without quickly getting up and getting back in track you will become open to the enemy who has being hovering around and looking for away to get you off the right track, they will come with distraction, lost of word, weakness to pray or meditate, inability to spread the good news to people who needs it, it only start with little distraction, then confusion, follows by defeat. Tamar listen to me, for we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of darkness in this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places…you have to be on guard always, because the devil is not going to stop until he pulls you down and you don’t have to let him, don’t create room for him to penetrate and attack your spiritual life, this is not time to weaver or lose focus, Lord Reese and Lady Phin are going to be save and it will be through you, that is one of your assignment here, you have to pray and rebuke the devil so that he will flee from you, you can’t save the master and the mistress with a carnal mind, by the time you are telling them the word and how to be save carnally, word by flesh not as God directed you, when you are doing this thinking you are doing a great work for God, the devil is quietly whispering in their ears his own lies, they will feel distracted and will not know who is saying the truth any more, so whatever you say to them they listen with one ear and the word walks straight out from the other ear because they are distracted, the good seed you think you are sowing is falling on thorns, rocks and foot path where they will be choked, smashed and trampled under feet by men, so you have to rebuke the devil, you have to be spiritually inclined, you have to stand firm Tamar, don’t give room for distraction, you have to war against the devil and when he comes to take the seed that you are sowing away the holy spirit will let you know and you will rebuke it immediately, and with the devil gone the people you preached to will be willing to listen and understand the ways of God so that they can be save, for there is no other name under heaven given to men by which we must be save except Jesus Christ…salvation is found in no one else except through Christ… Vim will be your weakness, do not let him cripple your faith, war against any spirit using him, because the devil will use him to bring you down, Vim may truly love you like he said but he doesn’t know God, and he is open to the devil, and he will drag you down with him if you are not solidify in God, war against any power that will stand against the word of God, take down your wall of fantasy and be totally sold out to God, take charge or your world Tamar, and rule as God has given you the ability, Tamar…there’s a lot to be done, I cry ahead of time for you, I see trouble lurking around you, if you see what God is revealing to me you will beg him to take the cup away from you, like Jesus prayed in the garden of Gethsemane before he was betrayed, Vim’s heart is harden and he can’t believe easily, it will take blood and tears for him to believe which means it will be hard. But there’s nothing the lord can not do, pray against the trouble I see lurking around your head, plead with God to take it away because is quiet consuming, God revealed that Zity will send for you tomorrow, Zity will soon be remarried and the worst is yet to come because of the woman i see beside her, who has the devil’s ear, be at watch. Get back on your knee, as you will be returning to your mistress, your time has passed in speaking with Lord Reese and Lady Phin about Christ, there will be other time to do that. God gives chances to people because God knows how weak we are, he remembers that we are only dust, our days on earth are like grass, like wildflower we bloom and die, the wind blows and we are gone as though we have never being here. I pray this day that the Lord will guide your every step, he will reveal himself to you, and speak to you heart as he speaks to me, he will take away the trouble the devil is trying to use to destroy you and give you wisdom to ascertain the good and the bad, may the Lord’s favor rest upon you Tamar, the wicked will see you and flee for you bear the mark of the lord Jesus. Be of good cheer dear because God is always with you.
I felt empowered, I felt something heavy taking off me and I fell on my knees as Abel prayed for me, I felt connected again with the holy spirit and when I returned to my chamber I kept praying,
The next day Zity sent for me just like Abel has said, and I left with Pami, Adolfo’s boy, who came to get me, after bidding the master and mistress goodbye, Vim was not around that day, I saw Obia smiling at one corner and I went to Abel who drew me into his arm and I was there for sometime as he muttered few prayers for me, he released me and look me straight in the eyes telling me not to ever forget who I am in God. I blink back tears and nodded, he kissed my forehead as if he was saying goodbye, he acted like I won’t see him again, I got scared and quickly rebuked the fear as I smiled to him and ran off to meet with Pami and we left
When we finally got to Adolfo’s house, Abel was right, Zity was planning to marry Chakan, Adolfo’s son when she finish separating from Adolfo, which was already in process, and Adolfo was so willing to finally let Zity go.

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TAMAR

Tamar-Episode 12

©Amah’s Heart

I felt serious head ach the following morning so I didn’t get up on time, as I sleep into the mid afternoon, Eura took up for me and when she told me that Zity asked of me and she told her I wasn’t feeling too well, she didn’t say much word, she just told Eura to tell me to take my time and rest well, after five days I felt a bit better to continue my work and when I reported to Zity that morning
“my lady, how are you this morning, my apologies for not being able to attend to you for the past few days, I was a bit down and I guess I needed to rest for some days for me to be active again and I’m alright now to work for you, how have you being?
“I thought you were angry with me for not wanting the baby and asking you to go dispose him, I thought you were angry…and avoiding me…
“I can’t avoid you my lady, I was called to serve and I will always be at your service, it doesn’t really matter if I’m angry or not, my feelings doesn’t count because only a slave and I’m here to help you…
“you know I never wanted the baby, and I could have aborted him even before anybody finds out but Okra delayed it and I have to bore him, the pain of carrying him and giving birth to him is just too much Tamar, he has already disfigured and disorganised my life even before he was born, I have gone through enough trouble already in bringing him fort, it wasn’t Okra that convinced me, don’t hate her she only want what is best for me, I didn’t want the baby too, I don’t, after Okra told me of what she did to hers, that she mistakenly bore, and how she disposed them, that was enough encouragement for me to throw away mine, and nobody’s opinion count, it was my body, so I can chose to do whatever I want with it, father and mother made a decision for me to marry Adolfo, which will be the last time I will listen to them, because I’m not happy in this so called marriage, no matter how I pretend I can’t love Adolfo, I can’t Tamar, neither do I want to have any child for him, well it was unfortunate I carried the baby and gave birth to him but I can’t just look at his face, Okra said it was better not to look at the baby’s face so that I won’t remember what he looks like or feel pity, or even allow the memory to torment me, I needed to do what I have to do, my happiness is my priority Tamar, I don’t want it to seem like I’m not doing my wife duties to Adolfo, please keep going to keep him busy so that Adolfo won’t even think of me, or come to disturb me in my chamber, I don’t want him I still want Chakan and is so painful whenever I think of him being with another woman, or with Zain, she has being avoiding me which probably means she has being seeing Chakan, I hate Zain, she’s such a bad friend, I hate Chakan for turning his back on me when I needed him and mostly I hate Adolfo for keeping me here, I don’t want to be his wife, I have never wanted to, and I feel even worst now, because…I know he is a good man and he deserve somebody that will love him but not me because I can’t love him Tamar, I can’t.
“my lady, you didn’t even ask where the baby was buried, is that how much you hate him or hate Adolfo…
“I don’t want to know Tamar, I don’t care wherever he is buried, and I will never ask…it is better that way, stop reminding me of what I’m trying to forget, stop telling me about the baby I don’t want to hear of it any more, do you understand
“yes my lady, I learnt that your father is ill, that was why your mother couldn’t come down, will you go and see him…
“I’m suppose to be mourning for my lost baby, if I go there now looking all cheerful they will have reason to ask questions of how the baby died and I don’t want anybody reminding me of that, is in my past now, I’m more glad that mother did not come, even if she has come down I wouldn’t have even allowed her know of my plans, or be there during delivery and she will have no choice than to respect that, I can’t go home now, I will pray to the gods from here to heal father, I suppose to act like I’m mourning for my late child, I can’t be seen moving around, Vim came to check up on me three days ago, he also asked of you and I told him that you are on a bed rest because the death of the baby has being tough on everyone, do you want to go home, because I don’t like the way you act around me now, making me feel guilty with your presence, and reminding me of my deeds, which I don’t have regret for, my only regret is conceiving him and not aborting him at the early stage, if you want to go home to mother and father, is fine by me, please go, I know you miss Abel, strange Abel, if I give you your freedom someday will you marry him, because I know you are fond of him, you are always seen around him, and looks upon him like he is a god, you love him right and you want to marry him…tell me
“Abel is a good man with a good heart, but he is not ready for marriage…
“you are trying to escape from the question of “if you love him”, we all know that he is a strange person and has never looked upon any woman for pleasure, even after father freed him, asking him to go and start his own family, he refused to go, everyone thinks he is a Christian practicing celibacy, but father always defends him, I don’t have any issue with what anybody practice, but Okra doesn’t like Christians, she said that the Christians act like they knows it all, and she hates that religion, she thinks you are a Christian or you practice Judaism because she has not seen you bow to any god before, or act like the maiden of the land, like Obia kind of worship or the tivi girls, she said she has seen you at the garden bowing your head and praying, you pray strangely she is not sure of the god you pray to but she thinks you are a Christian, I assured her that you are not, I have being with you for over five years now and I have never seen you pray or calling your God name out of sudden, I may not really know the god you worship but I assured Okra that you are not a Christian, Okra has big friends in high places who also hates Christian with passion and they are ready to send anyone they catch to the circuit animal, so you got to be careful with your Way of worship so it won’t be mistaken, will you like to go home, I need you to, so that you will keep mother away from coming down and have opportunity to see Abel, I will miss but is best that you go, I will send for you when I need you, but before you go I need you to take something to Okra in her house, is a gold jewel and a bracelet she saw it in my closet and wanted it, so I have decided to give it to her after she helped me. Take it to her because she said she will be traveling today and may not stop by…
I pick up the pouch that contains the gift for Okra and left to her place, when I got there, I was told she has already left on her journey but the merchant was inside, I wanted to see the merchant again, so I was ushered to where he sat in his upper house looking at nothing in particular
“My kind greetings to you my lord,
“How may I be of help to you young lady, I was told you wanted to see me
“i was sent to your wife, but in her absence I decided to say my greetings to you before leaving, do you remember me,
“I was told that you are from Adolfo’s wife, lady Zity, who seem to my wife acquaintance, you are lady Zity’s personal maid…or is there any other thing you want me to know
“You are absolutely correct, I’m also the slave girl you bought for forty shelling and sold for fifteen shelling because your wife didn’t want me, my head was bared, my hair was all shaved off and was wrapped with a turban and I told you then I was a Christi..an and you warned me never to say that to any one because it was forbidden in the land..
“oh the gods be praise, I remember everything, you have grown out with so much changes, you look different, I know is being years, I’m glad you were under a good household, Lord Reese, the second prime ruler of the kingdom is a good man, and being his daughter personal maid is a good credit, is because they found you worthy, I’m please to meet you again, please sit with me, my wife is on one of her unknown journey and won’t be back soon, I try not to worry of her in and out anymore, you came at the right time, what is your name again…
“Tamar, my lord, I’m glad to see you again, back then you told me that you are praying for a child, hope your prayers have being granted now
“not at all, the gods seem silent to my cry, and I guess Okra, my wife is also tired of the whole thing, that is why she is misbehaving, she doesn’t even allow me to touch her anymore because she thinks is a waste of time, she wanted to end the marriage but I pleaded with her not to leave me, I love my wife so much and i don’t want her to go, but she is insisting and I have not stop pleading, nobody knows the ways of the gods, Tamar, I wasn’t asking for too much one child was okay for me, I even suggest to my wife for us to go and take up one of the homeless children and call him or her ours but she warned me never to mention such again to her and I never did, how can you love somebody and still hates the person at same time, that’s the way I feel for Okra, I have try to accept my fate, if she wants to leave then let her go ahead, I will learn to be fine, she gives me too much trouble, she even has the boldness to tell me she was seeing another man of which i doubted and threaten to deal with any man I see close to her, but with the recent happening, her constant travelling which she doesn’t hide any more, I have learnt to just live everyday at a time, Okra is difficult to deal with and is sad to say that she may be a bad influence on Adolfo’s young wife, she may brainwash her and make her do her bidding that’s how commanding Okra can be…so tell me Tamar, what god do you worship now, I know you can’t still be a Christian
“well, I am, no other god like my God, I am exactly where god want me to be, my lord, with all due respect, nothing and no one can change that, you wanted me to worship lucrus, the god of fertility back then when I told you my faith, you shun me and asked me never to mention it again because is forbidden, and I even accepted whatever god you wanted me to worship so that I can have a roof over my head and food in my plate, but God has a better plan, by making your wife not to want me and when you sold me to Abel that young man that day, my faith was restored, and I’m stronger than I use to be, and nothing can change that, you have tried different gods, and yet you still feel empty, is because this gods can not offer you anything, they can only take from you but can’t give you the peace you seek, with so many god and goddess of this land yet the people in it are looking so helpless, there’s peace and liberty with my God, he gives it out abundantly to his children and those whose heart are pure…do you wonder why this kingdom hates Christian because they are afraid of their God, no one can contend with him, because him alone is almighty, and this people think by destroying God’s people they will become stronger or make mockery of God, they tried to wipe us out but we are like a seed we kept on multiplying…
“what a boldness, hmmm, you seem unafraid of anything, I know there was something special about you that day for me to have spent forty shelling for one slave, it was crazy yet I didn’t feel bad about it, neither did I tell anybody, not even my wife, I wouldn’t want you to die in the hands of this people who hates your kind, be careful, my wife, Okra, doesn’t like Christian, she hates them, but you act like an elder, I will not talk you out of your belief and my wife will never know of this but still be careful Tamar, I don’t know the plan your god has for you because he has lead me to buy you that day from the slave market and has already led me to meeting the boy I sold you back to, which was a great lost to me as a merchant who like making gain but I never counted on the lost rather I was glad you are safe. And I silently pray to the gods to protect you, I have not really paid much attention to a slave but you caught my attention Tamar, so just be careful in all your dealing so that this people will not cut your life shut, I’m glad you are well and may your God continue to protect you…
“Amen, Lord Lami, very soon and I mean soon, you will smile again, do not worry, everything will be alright. I will always pray for you, nothing can the enemy do to hurt you, I will be careful like I have always being, thank you for your time, let me be on my way now.
He nodded as I left, I walked out and report back to Zity that the merchant’s wife has already gone on her journey. Before I left for Lord Reese estate, I checked up on Adolfo the following day who has returned to his study
“I’m glad you are better now my lord, I was worried about you..
“I’m glad to see and hear that somebody really cares for me, thank you Tamar, I will be fine, I have not seeing Zity since after the birth and I know she doesn’t want to see me, I have come in term with that fact, I’m not going to ever force her, love suppose to come natural, what I still don’t understand is why my late wife gave me that message in my dream that she will lead me to the way, Zity has not lead me to anything except sadness and more loneliness, I have given chance hoping she will come around but I’m ready to let her go, I want her to be happy she can’t live the rest of her young life feeling sad and hating me, she is beautiful and ,many young men of her age will die to have her, I’m ready to call off this marriage Tamar, what do you think…
“do whatever you think is right my Lord, I’m glad you made that choice of letting Zity go, it will be better that way, you two can’t keep being sad, is not right, this is not how marriage suppose to be, Zity may not be the actual person that will lead you to the way that your late wife spoke about, but the person is going to come through her, and Zity has played her role in that aspect, now let the seed germinate and let it grow
“You are young and wise Tamar, you are more of a great companion to be than Zity ever was, and I will miss you when I finally let Zity free, I will miss you greatly,
“I will miss you too my lord, I will be going back to Lord Reese, he is ill, and Lady Phin needs help, so I want to go and help out in any way I can, I will assign Eura for you, anytime you need somebody to talk to, please kindly call on Eura, she will be a great companion to you just as I have being, I have trained her in the right way, she will gladden your heart with many philosophy, someday you will smile again and all your worries will be forgotten
Adolfo took my hands and squeezed it gently with a smile
“I don’t know the god you serve, I don’t serve any, I only have time for my studies, and pray to the general gods like a normal person does, but you make me want to know who you are and what god you serve, I’m grateful for the time you spent with me, and amy your God bless you greatly Tamar, and may Lord Reese gets well soon. Eura, I have seen you and her together in the garden and I will be glad to have somebody like you close to me, you are a wise child, your kindness will pave way for you Tamar. If you ever need anything tell me and it will be yours
I smiled and thanked him, and I thought of the baby and Rhonda, I will find away to get money across Rhonda, maybe from Abel, as I was about to leave, Adolfo gave me money to buy something for myself, and I thanked him, when I took it to my room and counted the money it was one hundred and fifty shelling, it was huge, and I felt relief, because I will first of all journey to see Rhonda before going home.
I talked to Eura that night and told her not to be afraid to tell Adolfo about Christ, but first of all let her behavior, her character make way for her, people needs to see the kind of person she is first and the kind of life she lives for them to be convinced enough to follow her and She listened.
Eura hearkened to my voice, I hugged her the following morning and went to Zity who bid me farewell, I thanked Lami, Adolfo’s boy for all his kindness, and I promised to return once everything is settled, I left but not home straight I went to see Rhonda and to check how the baby was doing. I bought somethings with the money Adolfo gave me and I will give her enough money for the baby’s upkeep, she must not depend on the midwife or her little trade to feed herself, the twin girls and Zity’s son.
I journeyed to Rhonda, following all the road me and the midwife passed that night, until I got there, she was happy to see me like I was to see her, Zity’s son was feeding in her arms, and the twins were helping her to sell her off her small trade so that they can have food to eat, I brought out all the things I bought for them and she was really happy. I got to know that her husband was a Christian before he died.
I was glad that God led us to Rhonda that night, she will bring the children in her care up in the ways of the Lord, not the ways of the pagan gods of the land.

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