Category: June Break

I started planning on how to get more money, save up and move out.

I don’t even have any friend or colleague that is free and I can go stay with.

They’re either staying with somebody or theirs no space at their end.

That includes Ella my colleague, she would’ve been the best option but no space at her side.

I couldn’t even move in with anybody even if there was a space because Phil already made it clear that he does not like the idea of me staying with a friend.

His fear was they may mislead me 

The only option right now is to get a place of my own and I can also be able to start fighting for my money that’s in Louise hand from a different location.

I’m definitely not given up on my money yet.

That’s my two years hard work, it can’t just go like that without a fight.

I’m still very scared of telling Phil about Louise, I wish to but each time fear get full hold of me.

I really want to move out of Louise house. I don’t want to associate with him any longer.

I will be starting my new job by Monday and Louise isn’t aware yet and I don’t plan telling him anything

I plan on doing something to get money, I don’t know if is the right thing but I can’t think of anything else.

I told Phil that I needed small cash to send to my younger sister who wants to write her school exam and also money that she can use to buy some books since my parents have other responsibilities.

Phil asked me how much I needed, I told him anything he can afford.

He said I should be specific. “how much is the exam fee” he asked again.

 I was quiet and shy to mention any amount but after much push I told him about 200k.

He said two hundred thousand just for exam? What kind of exam was my kid sister writing?

I never thought of the lies and it was not properly organized.

I never thought Phil will start asking all of that.

I started stuttering again, as I began to think of any exam that’s very expensive.

He asked me to stop stuttering that he will give me the money but he will have to see me first before giving it to me.

I was afraid at first but I have no choice than to see him that weekend.

He picked me up and I can’t hide the fact that I was truly afraid

Did Louise mention anything to him, was my lies very obvious.

Did he knows anything else about me apart from the fact that I’m Louise cousin sister.

Why did he make it sound urgent when he said he wanted to see me.

We hanged out and had a good time with good food.

Is been two weeks already after our last hangout that he gave me money and also for Louise.

I was supposed to be resuming in his company few days from now which makes it begining of a new month.

What exactly is the problem.

As I sat beside him at the passenger side of the car. He looked at me with a full smile.

“My Queen, my angel. You’re as beautiful as ever. When is your next birthday? I want to make it special for you…”

I blushed with full smile and told him

“April 13th. That’s my birthday and is just around the corner. Two months time….I will be 20 years. I remember when I clocked 18 and then 19. My 19th birthday was at work nothing special. I can’t believe that I’m already turning 20…”

This time I was actually laughing.

He pat my cheek gently.

“You don’t look 20, you look 25.  You actually act and think like some 17 to 20years old tho…”

“… Some of your behavior is childish sometimes also  in line with your age. Well, I still love everything about you. You’re still my baby. Have you thought of school? What is your plan for the future? Have you thought of any yet? Your Mom and Dad… you don’t talk about them. Hope they’re alright? I know Louise is your cousin, do you have siblings or you’re the only child. I really want to know more about you my love and see if there’s a way I can be of help. You mentioned your sister writing exam…”

I quickly interrupted

“Yea…yes she called asking me for some money. My parents are alive and well but they’re not working big jobs that fetch them lots of money if not I wouldn’t have asked you for help. I have plans for school but it didn’t work out the way I planned it but I’m working on another plan. If you don’t have the money or up-to the amount I mentioned then is fine. I totally understand..my sister is ready to wait until I have the money or she may even choose to skip it…”

He looked at me puzzled

“What kind of exam is that April? I mean why will she wait, will the exam be waiting for her too until she is fully ready? Skipping it.. that part I don’t get it.. isn’t it an important exam… maybe high school exams or planning to get into higher institution. I guess is your kid sister? 

I nodded and try to think of another lie to cover up the first lie.

“… you don’t need to say anything again, I’m guessing the exam stuffs is probably not true..!

He was quiet as he stared at me for few seconds. I try to defend myself he continued.

“… you sound scared and uncertain when you talk about it but that does not dispute the fact that you probably needed money or your family does. I Love you April and you don’t need to paint words or lie to get to me. I told you to feel free and always let me know whenever you’re in need of anything…”

“… I want you to understand that I’m a man of my word. Come straight out to me and tell me you needed money or anything at all and I will definitely try and make it happen. Even if I don’t have it at that moment, I will let you know when it will be ready. Don’t cook up any story, fabricate lies or be scared when you need something from me dear. Is absolutely unnecessary. I will give you the money alright but please try and be straight forward with me. I told you what turns me off the last time and lies is part of it. Please is more classy when you’re open with me and direct. I won’t have cause to start worrying… alright?

I nooded quietly. My lies and the attitude I portray didn’t go well.

I felt so much ashamed.

“…What about Louise? Is he okay…he did not get back to me concerning the Highlander in my garage? What did he say when you told him? Also the money… hope he didn’t feel indifference with the amount? He didn’t call or say anything… I’m more concerned about his stand on the car. Does he want it or not?

I thought of what to say.

I never gave the money to Louise and the car he insisted is Phil’s kind of car. He said he won’t settle for anything less, is either Benz or nothing else but I can’t possibly tell Phil all of that.

I was scared and didn’t know what kind of lie to tell this time.

“Louise is busy…I guess and he will get back to you..”

 that’s all I can think off.

“I will call him tonight or tomorrow, he probably felt the amount I gave him is too small or he does not understand fully that the car is Highlander which is almost all big boys choice of a car. I’m sure I will get to understand what exactly is the problem and why he haven’t called. Being busy isn’t an excuse though. Don’t worry April, your cousin will come to understand that I love you and ready to go extra mile to prove that. Just knowing me alone, Louise will have alot to be thankful for in future…”

He smiled and kissed me. He straightened, brought out an envelope and hand it over to me.

“..that’s two hundred and fifty thousand April. I might be rich but I don’t squander or spend cash anyhow. I work hard for every dime I spend and I will like you not to spend it on useless things. I’m not a fraudster and money may not always be available to spend as we like at all time but it won’t get so bad not to spend at all. If you plan sending to anybody then whatever is left, kindly manage it untill I have more to give you okay..? I will call Louise tomorrow…”

I was scared and shaky at the moment he said he was going to call Louise.

I asked him not to bother himself calling Louise that I will ask Louise to call him instead.

But he insisted and said it wasn’t a problem.

 “…If Louise wanted to call he could have called the moment he got the money i sent to him through you last two weeks or even at the mention of the car to him. Phil added.

Phil felt that something must be bothering Louise and he wants to know what exactly it was so that it doesn’t affect me in anyway.

I thanked him for the huge amount as he went to drop me off.

I was thinking hard and deep or what to do next, especially now that Phil plan to call Louise.

(Do not take credit or Plagiarize AMAH’S HEART stories)

Next Episode 

As I went home that day, I was busy singing different songs while going around doing my chores.

Louise who happened to be home was wondering what was going on with me.

Instead of me to be sober I was busy singing and smiling

He did not bother asking me immediately.

The following day, he asked me if I have communicated to Phil concerning his latest demands time for It to be achieved.

I told him that I haven’t informed him of the latest and he went on and on ranting about what he was going to do to me.

I was not moved one bit with his whole threats, I didn’t even stop to stare at him or show him that I was scared.

I did not reply or say anything, deep down I can see that he was wondering what I was up to. He kept ranting nonstop seeing that I was not giving him attention.

The very day I was supposed to meet Phil, I got ready, wore one of my favorite t-shirt with a blue jean jacket and trouser. 

I wore a white sneakers and a portable single chain bag

I put on some cologne just to smell nice. I apply simple make up. I wasn’t a serious makeup type but once in a while I try to apply little.

I checked myself in the mirror to be certain that I was looking okay.

It was a weekend, he was coming to pick me up maybe to a cool spot where we can chill out. It will be a private lounge just for two of us, quiet with nice music playing in the background 

There I will tell him everything he needs to know. 

Today May be our final departure, it maybe the last day that we get to be together. 

After telling him everything about me he may decide to dump me and even insult me too.

He may feel like I was deceiving him and leading him along while living with a man.

Phil will be very angry and may never forgive me. It will hurt me really bad, it will be a deep wound.

 I will be sad, lonely and frustrated but I know with time I will be alright.

No one understands my journey, no one will understand my story even if I try to tell it all.

But it does not really matter if they understand or not.

Is my life and I won’t let myself down.

I will return back home someday, a lively and happy person. I will be a better version of myself and live my life to the fullest.

When I’m done with Phil, I will put Louise in his place.

I will find a means and get my money from him.

I won’t let him hold back everything I have worked for all this years.

I need that money to restart my life again and I will try different means to get it even if it means involving the police.

I was standing by the mirror watching myself and wondering how today will go.

I gasped out slowly before taking the last look at myself.

I was looking alright and my outfit was perfect.

I try to look on the bright side by smiling. I gasped again before stepping out.

Louise who was in the sitting room saw me and asked me where I was dressed to.

Before I could answer him he said “…oh Phil, you’re going on a date with your rich boyfriend who will dump your fat a$s if you don’t dance to my tune soon. Infact I’m giving you this week to give me a positive feedback, a positive answer otherwise i will take the honor of exposing you. This week and it won’t pass it…”

I didn’t reply because I know the honor will be mine at the end. Louise won’t have the last laugh, I won’t let him. I’m going to expose myself and he won’t have anything to hang onto. He will loose balance and fall flat. 

I ignored him and started moving towards the door

“….By the way you’re looking nice. I can see the good handwork of your rich boyfriend showing on your body. I will be a partaker of his giveaway soon, You can’t be enjoying alone. Today is another opportunity to remind your Phil and beat it loudly into his ears that I need my car and money urgently. Use this opportunity well April or you will have alot of regrets coming your way…”

I stepped out without a word.

I called Phil again that I was already out waiting for him. He asked me to hold on that he was close by.

In no time I saw Phil’s car driving down.

I started moving slowly from the bustop where I was waiting for him.

He parked and I crossed over to join him and we drove off.

We chatted for a while as I try to feel at ease with the tension building in.

My heart beat wanted to start speeding in fear but I try to slow it down.

Phil admired my outfit and said I was looking beautifully smart.

I smile and thanked him as he bent over and pecked my cheeks while still driving.

“You’re beautiful April, I know you must have heard this line severally but I still want to let you know that you are a masterpiece, smart, outspoken, intelligent and fun to be with. Another thing is that you don’t disappoint with your dress sense. You dress like a model and I love everything about you. This is not a flattery, I mean every word I said…”

I thanked him as I blushed a little with a full smile on my face.

Who will hear all this lovely things coming from a well exposed man like Phil, who has so many beautiful, matured sophisticated women crowding around him all the time yet he choose me. Which woman will hear him say all of this things without feeling like she is on top of the world.

“…I got something for you. I hope you will love it

He said and I replied while still smiling

“You spoil me too much Phil, you’re always getting something for me…”

He was grinning from ear to ear. He looks so happy. Either because we’re hanging out together or my presence was giving him joy.

“I will give it to you when we get to the place. Putting smile on your face is my job…I never want to see you unhappy. And please whenever you need anything… anything at all please don’t hesitate to let me know. I love you April with my whole heart. You occupy all the space… Nothing is left.”

I began to laugh, I felt relaxed and at peace whenever I’m with Phil. He has a special way of making me feel at peace with myself. 

I replied back that I also love him.

I thought of Louise and frown

An idea pops into my head and I decided to ask.

“…what will I do that will make your Love for me to diminish or turn into hate? I mean what is the highest offence that I will commit that will make you dislike my person and will not want to have anything to do with me again?

I asked playful but deep down I really wanted to know. I became scared of loosing him and stylishly throw in the question.

He became silent while still smiling.

“I can’t really think of anything that will warrant such. Hate is a strong word…I don’t think I will ever hate you April. You’re like an angel and very special to me. You do no wrong in my sight and nothing will ever make me dislike you… I’m not sure there’s anything as such…”

I urged him to think deep. What is his turn off in a woman that he happens to be in a relationship with.

“..uhmm, I still can’t think of anything. Maybe because you’re seated close to me, I’m not thinking straight anymore. But.. maybe when my woman cheats. cheating is a turn off for me. Is better the lady breaks up with me and start another relationship than having another guy and pretending like I’m her only man. No one deserves such a disgusting treatment…not the guy or even a lady. In a relationship, the both party owns each other loyalty. Respect, care, truth and love. That’s not a demand is just natural for both party involved.  Lies, cheating and violent is a big time turn off for me. I know most faithful fellows can relate to this. No one deserves to be treated with disdain, disrespect or lies. Being faithful shouldn’t be up for a debate in a relationship, is a must…”

He turned to look at me. I managed to smile. I wasn’t okay at all. It was as if he was indirectly talking about me. 

“… April, you don’t have anything to worry or fear when it comes to be being faithful to you. Is your right and I will never deprive you of that. I can beat my chest and say that you’re hundred percent faithful too. you’re cool headed, calm, homely and probably never had a serious boyfriend…or have you been in a serious relationship. Not the high school kind of relationship. I mean a very serious one…?

“Yes…I mean not really..I used to, well..is not.. I wanted to say that I use… never had…” I was obviously stuttering.

I look so guilt stricken but Phil suddenly began to laugh and his laughter eased my tensed body.

“I knew it…I know the relationship you’re talking about is the high school type. I’m probably your first or second man. You’re too young and might not have any serious experience when it comes to relationship. Don’t be frightened my love, I will never hurt you or make you sad… deliberately. If I’m doing anything that you don’t like please, don’t fail to call my attention to it. I might be carried away or unknowingly act without thinking. But I will never deliberately hurt your feelings. So make sure you let me know whenever I do things that you’re not please with… alright?

I nodded. He gently brushed his hand on my cheek.

He kept driving. “What of your cousin…brother, Louise..hope he’s doing alright. He called me last week, I forgot to tell you… but I assume you are aware. He was obviously checking up on me. He asked about my car model and how much I got it. He mentioned he loves it and looking forward to having something like it soon. When I told him the amount I got the car he screamed and said is really expensive but he is still interested in having it. He later asked if you told me how much he admires the car? I said you never mentioned it. He said no problem, he just wanted to check up and to tell me that while taking care of you I shouldn’t forget him too…”

Phil began to laugh as he continued. “…He said it jokingly and we both laugh about it. I appreciate him for checking up. My mind felt at rest knowing that you’re in a safe hand. I love the fact that you’re with a family rather than a friend. I don’t like my woman staying with her friends because they may mislead her. Maybe, if we’re going home we will get something nice for Louise. Like a thank you gift for taking good care of you. What do you think?

I nodded with a smile. 

I felt relived when we finally arrived at our destination.

He parked and we stepped down.

He had a square small box in hand which I believe is the gift. 

“Did he want to propose to me? I said silently to myself.

That’s a crazy idea and the beautiful box looks bigger, not the type of a ring size box

He was holding my hands as we walked into this nice cool spot.

He took me to the VIP and we got seated.

He ordered for things and handed the box to me.

He asked me to open it and I quickly did.

Curiosity got the best of me.

The inside was indeed beautiful, a gold chain with two fine bracelet.

They’re so beautiful.

I was thanking him repeatedly. 

Untill I met Phil I have never had anything so expensive.

Phil never stop giving me gifts. Different types and all expensive.

I have never gotten him anything. 

What can you get for a man that has it all.

Maybe I will think of something that I can give him.

Is the heart of giving that matter not the gift itself.

I couldn’t take much of the goodies that was brought to the table. I was just thinking about how I will tell him about Louise.

Isn’t it the reason I asked him to hang out, is the major reason why we are here.

Before leaving the house my mind was strong and I was ready to spill it all out to him. I wanted to let out the cat from the bag and didn’t want to hold back anything

The strength and zeal I had before I entered his car has vanished.

I no longer have any strength, I’m just like a scared little mouse right now.

I don’t know where or how to start anymore.

I can’t afford to loose Phil but if I don’t do this Louise will expose me.

And from everything that Phil said today concerning his type of relationship, I’m standing on a dangerous lane.

Phil has been good to me, he had loved me effortlessly and supported me.

He made me feel loved, he appreciates me. He does not only cares for me but also for people around me.

I can’t hurt him, I will never.. ever hurt Phil with my secret.

He does not deserve such and I may never find a man like him again.

Phil maybe my gateway of escaping Louise and I can’t allow anything to rùin that.

Men like Louise are everywhere, men feeling entitled and trying to reap where they did not sow. Abúsive men, pretenders, womanizers. Egoistic men, prideful, rude and liars. They’re cheap to get, they’re everywhere and very good in pretending.

Their names may not necessarily be Louise but Louise is a perfect example.

If a Lady meet them, they will mistake them for a prince charming not knowing that they are wolf in sheep clothing.

They can pretend for months but one day they will show off their true nature and leaving the lady in a shocked state.

Phil type of a man is rare, not cheap, not pretenders, they are real and expensive.

If a lady is lucky to encounter one, she should avoid those things that will hurt him and make sure she reciprocate their love.

I’m lucky to have Phil in my life and I won’t let anything to ruine it.

Not even Louise.

“So, what is that you wanted to tell me?

Phil asked bringing back to the present.

“… you seem to be a little bit distanced. Is anything bothering you April? Remember, you can talk to me…I promise I will always be here for you and will support you emotionally, physically and financially. All I need from you is trust, trust me because I trust you..”

“.. you wanted to tell me something, you sounded desperate. Tell me whatever it is..”

Words dries from my mouth. I didn’t know where to start from again.

(Do not take credit or Plagiarize AMAH’S HEART stories)

I sluggishly followed him outside and all of what he was saying during the time that we are outside wasn’t reaching my ears.

My mind was very far and so was my thoughts.

Philip coming to my house was a bad idea, so bad.

Why didn’t he try and find means to reach me first?

He knows the exact bustop I normally wait for bus to take me home every evening after work.

I have told him where I work and he can aswell come and look for me there

There are many options apart from my house that he can still see me but instead he choose the worst place and now I’m left with no idea or option on how to face Louise.

“Are you alright, you’re not happy to see me or what? Philip asked after handling me a fancy bag filled with things.

“No, I’m happy that you’re finally back. You almost gave me a heart attack. I’m only a bit surprised that you choose to come down to my house of all places…”

He smiled and touched me gently on the cheek

“I did not see another better option. I was worried sick about you. I’m sorry for showing up the way I did, I was just so eager to see you my love. Beside, your cousin is not that bad. He’s nice, accommodating and entertaining. I don’t know why you haven’t introduce me all this while. What were you afraid off? 

“Nothing, but I’m not just comfortable with you coming to my house. Louise maybe nice but he can be troublesome sometimes and I don’t want trouble at all. You may not understand Phil but it will be better if we can keep our relationship far from my house. I won’t be comfortable if you start visiting me here..” I said to him without mincing words.

“April, but there’s obviously nothing to be afraid off, I told you that I don’t like hide and seek love… and getting to know one of your family member that you’re staying with in this big city is one of my wishes come true. Louise made it known that I’m welcome anytime. I don’t see reason why you should be up-tight because of that. Is all good April and I’m happy and feel free, I can visit you anytime and spend time with your family… Louise is your only family that I have met so far and he has already accepted me without troubles so you shouldn’t be worried because everything is settled and you won’t be hiding from anyone again…”

I saw that convincing him to stop coming to the house or seeing Louise may raise a suspecious dust, I decided to drop off the topic.

I will sit and plan for another way out of this later.

He kissed me good bye and drove off.

I returned back inside to face Louise

Immediately I entered the sitting room he began to clap, laughing hilariously

He pause from clapping and laughing then said to me.

“So that’s your secret lover? Unfortunately for you is not a secret anymore. He was the reason for those your Sicky behavior and you kept lying and fabricating different things just to cover up but look at how you were exposed? You didn’t even expected it to happen this way right? nothing is hidden under the sun my dear April. I have been sharing you all this while with Philip and didn’t even know it. I guess you’re giving him the lion share of your body freely and I have to take mine by force from you. See how you’ve been exposed and the funniest part of this whole thing is that I’m not even angry rather I’m very happy because I have seen avenue to become one of the biggest boys in town…. hahaha”

“I’m begging you Louise, please leave Phil alone. Do with me as you please but leave Phil out of your troubles. I will do whatever you say or ask of me… I’m pleading”

He began to laugh hysterically again

“So you mean that you can actually plead like this because of a man? Look at the way you’re holding your hands together and begging me to leave your secret lover alone… hahahaha! I have not even started and you’re already pleading. Anyway, because of the true love I have for you, I will do as you say but on one condition…”

I was very eager to hear whatever condition it was. 

Maybe he will ask me to sleep with him and that is no longer anything to me.

He can have me as he please but he should leave Phil alone.

I was waiting for him to tell me the condition but he sat down and pick up the television remote control.

“Louise, what do you want? I’m ready to accept anything just for you to let Philip be. I will do anything you say or want please…”

“I know you will April because you don’t really have a choice. You will do anything either good or bad in this case… you will do anything to cover up your tract. Your Phil thinks we’re related, your Phil thinks you’re a good girl but you’re not. Your Phil does not know you ran away from your parents…or does he? He doesn’t know you eloped with your lover, which happens to be me and we have been living together for years now or am I wrong? And the reason you refused him coming to the house is because you lied that you were living with your uncle… your relative but in truth you got no relative here. You’re just a naive girl who ran away from home with her lover and has been living together with him as a couple…”

He laughed sarcastically and continued

“…You wanted to prove a point to your family and make them understand that no one orders you around, you will do anything for your freedom and damn all consequences. You don’t care about their feelings or what your eloping may cause them. You’re self centered, spoilt brat that thinks of no one else but yourself. So yes, you will definitely do anything I say because you don’t have a choice…”

I was moved to tears but I refused showing weakness in front of Louise.

“None of what you said about me is totally true. You convinced me, you made me believe that following you to the city was the best and I stupidly believed you. Louise you of all people knows the truth but since you decided to tell your own fabricated version no problem, I’m not even surprised. You don’t know anything about me or my pain but none of that matters because even if you know you will still choose to say whatever you want to say…”

“Watch your mouth April, I have the keys to your doom in my custody. I also have the keys to your happiness so you better watch what you say or do to avoid more regrets. Whatever you do onward should be centered on pleasing me… maybe for the rest of your life because I got the power to make or destroy you. Go and make food, I’m hungry…I will tell you tomorrow the conditions that you have to meet if you really want me to leave your Phil alone…”

I started leaving and he called me back and asked me to open the fancy bags filled with things that Philip got for me.

I emptied it on the chair for him. Philip really got me nice stuffs, fine foot wears, nice body fit, colognes, beautiful portable hand bag, two fine tops and few other things.

“… This your Phil is truly a lover boy. Hahahaha, lover girl deceiving lover boy. Anyway, he gave me unexpected big amount of money… which means that he is wealthy guy or he got a rich Dad or Mum. I don’t really care how rich he maybe I’m just happy that breeze blew him to my end and we finally met…”

I began packing my gifts back into the bag. I suddenly pause and asked him

“You want to sleep with me? If that’s what your condition is then get on with it. I’m giving you right to my body but please leave Phil alone. You will have to promise me and keep your words Louise”

He started laughing again

“April just shut up please. I don’t need permission from you or anyone to sleep with you when I want. I have every right to it and whenever I want…I take it. You’re even very boring in bed. You will lay there like a log until I’m done, nothing about you is interesting… you’re so boring. Don’t be faster than your shadow and start running your mouth, I said I will tell you my conditions tomorrow. You better quit thinking that sleeping with you will be the condition. That’s the must craziest, stúpid idea but coming from you I’m not shocked… you’re very stúpid and your thinking is lame. Please take what your lover got for you out of here and go and make food for me to eat. By tomorrow I will tell you whatever my conditions are…”

I heaped a sigh before walking away.

I really don’t know what Louise is up-to, I don’t have a clue of the conditions he probably wants to give me but I’m so much eager to know.

If he’s not interested in having my body then I really don’t know what he wants but I hope is something I can do because I will do anything to protect Philip from Louise.

(Do not take credit or Plagiarize AMAH’S HEART stories)

Three weeks became four then five and the six week arrived scaring me on each passing day.

Initially it was flowing well but all changed later.

We were not communicating like before, he was cold and hardly pick his call or reply my messages.

I was truly worried and then scared that something bad had happened to him.

I was panicking as i couldn’t think straight on exactly what was going on

What if he was done with me and doesn’t want to have anything to do with me

He can’t just come into my life and mess it up like this.

Although I had nothing to loose but I had already fallen for him totally.

Philip is one of a kind and I will be so Damned if I miss such a man.

Maybe the money he sent was a goodbye gift. I never even thought of that until now.

Did I offend him without knowing or was it because I refused to allow him to come and see my so-called uncle that doesn’t even exist.

Or did he happens to know about Louise?

He probably did his findings and found out that I was living with a man who happens to be my boyfriend.

“No… no, he can’t possibly know that…”

 My guilt will torment my conscience day by day. Although I still feel tortured but I can cope knowing well that Philip knows absolutely nothing about me.

I was almost loosing my mind thinking about Philip.

I became moody and lost appetite.

Nothing interest me at all. I try to forge ahead and not let anything about Philip pull me down emotionally but nothing was really helping.

“What is wrong with you…” Louise asked one day

“Nothing, I’m fine..” I replied

“No, you’re not  fine. I noticed you are just mooping around like a shadow. Something is definitely eating at you… and you know you can tell me anything right…”

I looked up at him, expressionless and angry that he wouldn’t drop the topic

“… you can tell me anything April because I care….”

That was an actual lie, Louise doesn’t care one bit he was only being inquisitive, he really wanted to know what was happening in my life and I’m not ready to spill a thing.

“I’m fine Louise, please just leave me alone. Thanks for caring…”

I walked into the room to try Philip’s number hoping he will pick but as usual it was not going through

I decided to send a message, after sending the first one, I sent another and waited but no reply came.

This was it for me. I will delete his number and everything about him.

I will try to forget about him so that I can move forward because thinking about him, calling and texting him without getting a reply makes me want to cry.

Maybe, I will give it few more days and I will never call him again

He can’t be toiling with my emotions.

That following morning, while I was in the bathroom getting ready for work i began to wish I know his office or where he lives.

If I do I could have visited, paying him an unexpected visit may not sit well with him but he left me with no choice.

I finished from the bathroom, stepped into the room and there Louise was seated on the bed checking my phone.

I rushed to drag my phone from him but he pushed me away, I lost my balance and fell down.

He didn’t say a word as he continued checking.

I stood up to face him.

“Who’s Phill?

I didn’t say anything, he approached me and repeated the question

“Is a nobody..”I replied still standing.

“It doesn’t seem like a nobody to me, you have been communicating with him for sometimes now and I know you must have deleted some old messages too. But this last one you sent you were begging him to pick your call. Let me read out some of it “tell me what I have done wrong Phil, please reply or pick my call because I’m going crazy thinking of you…”

Louise read it out from the phone to me and I was quiet without trying to defend myself.

“…..so who’s is Phil I ask you again?

“Is a nobody. I replied again

“He angrily smashed my phone on the walls and said “stop toiling with me April, for the last time who this Phil, you call, text him and begging him to reply you because you’re going crazy..? So he’s been the reason for your recent bad mood. You’re cheating on me? Are you seeing another man? You’re seeing another man under my nose…? April, answer me because if you don’t your head will be the next thing I will smash…”

I was afraid but I try not to show it. I wanted this moment to pass because I was scared of what Louise will do next.

“I’m not seeing another man Louise. You’re my only man and Phill means nothing to me. Please, I don’t want any trouble this morning. Is just one of those moments at work, I happen to meet a customer who probably charmed me because the guy is not caring, not fine, not romantic and doesn’t love me yet I can’t seem to get him out of my head. I’m begining to think he did something to me, maybe he charmed me through a diabolic means. Even has a wife and kids… that’s how crazy it is Louise. I need prayer because this is not ordinary. Maybe is from the ice cream he brought for me and I innocently ate it. Talking about it now I feel a little free. That’s the truth…”

He looked at me for few minutes and said

“Indeed, you’re charmed if that’s the case. I don’t want this madness to repeat itself again so try to uncharm yourself before something worse happen. Has he taken you out before… have you slept with him…”

I told him that none of that happenend

“I believe you but prove it, 

“How…?  I replied uncertain of what exactly he meant.

He said he will show me how.

 Louise pulled off the towel tied around my chest and pushed me to the bed.

Fifteen minutes later he was done, satisfied and stood to dress.

I endured, didn’t make a sound and neither did I resist.

It’s not longer new, the way he treats me like a hārlot but I’m still left in his mercy

I felt more hatred and disgusted for him but I didn’t say a word.

“, Before getting to work make sure you stop at a pharmacy and get some meds to prevent pregnancy for yourself. I know you’re naive and stupid, you must be told what to do Everytime yet you act like you’re smart, but in the actual sense you are dumb….”

I quietly entered the bathroom and washed off, when I came out he was still there.

I immediately started dressing hurriedly.

“… another thing is that no matter who the man is or whatever excuses you probably got for him please don’t let this happen again. You’re not permitted to move or relate with any other man romantically. Except if you are foolish and wants to see the other side of me. I’m very nice April but I hate to be toiled with. Respect both my presence and absence please, mingling with any man on whatever ground you may place it is cheating and disrespect and I won’t tolerate such from you…”

He was still talking when I got dressed and was about leaving when he asked.

“Hope you heard everything I said…”

“Yes, I heard you…”

“Good. Don’t forget to get the drugs at the pharmacy. I don’t want to hear any pathetic story of how you went throwing up or having cramps because you suspects pregnancy. You’re big enough to take care of yourself in that regards. So please, do the needful… hope you understand?

“Sure, I’m clear on that…”

I looked over at where my broken phone lay in pieces on the ground. I made attempt to go retrieve.

“Hey… what are you doing, where do you think you’re going?

“I want to pick my phone…” I replied pausing close to where the phone is.

“What for, so that you will find another means and continue communicating with your Phil?

“Is a broken phone Louise, I want to see if it can still work. How are we going to communicate without a phone. You won’t be able to reach me and I won’t be able to reach you. I will probably take it to a repairer to fix..”

“Fine, go ahead and take it…” He finally said.

I put the phone in my bag and left.

I stopped by at a pharmacy and get some drugs.

I was very late to work that day, I gave excuses for coming late to work and my boss happen to be around.

“April, you know already that you’re among the staff here that I admire. Always punctual, neat and very customer friendly. You are among the workers that won the best staff of the year. Many staff here looks up to you, they want to follow in your footsteps. Coming very late to work without a call and your line wasn’t going through is not a good thing. You’re the image of the company and need to be at your best at all time. If there is any reason that you had to come in late please try to put a call across. I will excuse today’s behavior but please let it not happen again…”

I was trying very hard to fight my emotions and hold back myself from crying.

I managed to thank her before going into the changing room to change into my working uniform and that was where I broke down and started crying

I released all the emotions that I have been holding in and allowed the tears to flow.

When I felt a little free I wiped off my face, got ready to face the day.

Within that day I try to turn on my phone but it wasn’t coming on again.

I borrowed my colleagues phone to make a call.

I try calling Phil because I had his number in my head but his number still wasn’t going through.

I finally made up my mind that Philip was a history and is time to face reality and move on.

Being strong and fighting whatever battle that I will have to face from now onwards alone and Louise is one hëll of a battle I will have to fight with everything I got until he is defeated.

(Do not take credit or Plagiarize AMAH’S HEART stories)

Three weeks became four then five and the six week arrived scaring me on each passing day.

Initially it was flowing well but all changed later.

We were not communicating like before, he was cold and hardly pick his call or reply my messages.

I was truly worried and then scared that something bad had happened to him.

I was panicking as i couldn’t think straight on exactly what was going on

What if he was done with me and doesn’t want to have anything to do with me

He can’t just come into my life and mess it up like this.

Although I had nothing to loose but I had already fallen for him totally.

Philip is one of a kind and I will be so Damned if I miss such a man.

Maybe the money he sent was a goodbye gift. I never even thought of that until now.

Did I offend him without knowing or was it because I refused to allow him to come and see my so-called uncle that doesn’t even exist.

Or did he happens to know about Louise?

He probably did his findings and found out that I was living with a man who happens to be my boyfriend.

“No… no, he can’t possibly know that…”

 My guilt will torment my conscience day by day. Although I still feel tortured but I can cope knowing well that Philip knows absolutely nothing about me.

I was almost loosing my mind thinking about Philip.

I became moody and lost appetite.

Nothing interest me at all. I try to forge ahead and not let anything about Philip pull me down emotionally but nothing was really helping.

“What is wrong with you…” Louise asked one day

“Nothing, I’m fine..” I replied

“No, you’re not  fine. I noticed you are just mooping around like a shadow. Something is definitely eating at you… and you know you can tell me anything right…”

I looked up at him, expressionless and angry that he wouldn’t drop the topic

“… you can tell me anything April because I care….”

That was an actual lie, Louise doesn’t care one bit he was only being inquisitive, he really wanted to know what was happening in my life and I’m not ready to spill a thing.

“I’m fine Louise, please just leave me alone. Thanks for caring…”

I walked into the room to try Philip’s number hoping he will pick but as usual it was not going through

I decided to send a message, after sending the first one, I sent another and waited but no reply came.

This was it for me. I will delete his number and everything about him.

I will try to forget about him so that I can move forward because thinking about him, calling and texting him without getting a reply makes me want to cry.

Maybe, I will give it few more days and I will never call him again

He can’t be toiling with my emotions.

That following morning, while I was in the bathroom getting ready for work i began to wish I know his office or where he lives.

If I do I could have visited, paying him an unexpected visit may not sit well with him but he left me with no choice.

I finished from the bathroom, stepped into the room and there Louise was seated on the bed checking my phone.

I rushed to drag my phone from him but he pushed me away, I lost my balance and fell down.

He didn’t say a word as he continued checking.

I stood up to face him.

“Who’s Phill?

I didn’t say anything, he approached me and repeated the question

“Is a nobody..”I replied still standing.

“It doesn’t seem like a nobody to me, you have been communicating with him for sometimes now and I know you must have deleted some old messages too. But this last one you sent you were begging him to pick your call. Let me read out some of it “tell me what I have done wrong Phil, please reply or pick my call because I’m going crazy thinking of you…”

Louise read it out from the phone to me and I was quiet without trying to defend myself.

“…..so who’s is Phil I ask you again?

“Is a nobody. I replied again

“He angrily smashed my phone on the walls and said “stop toiling with me April, for the last time who this Phil, you call, text him and begging him to reply you because you’re going crazy..? So he’s been the reason for your recent bad mood. You’re cheating on me? Are you seeing another man? You’re seeing another man under my nose…? April, answer me because if you don’t your head will be the next thing I will smash…”

I was afraid but I try not to show it. I wanted this moment to pass because I was scared of what Louise will do next.

“I’m not seeing another man Louise. You’re my only man and Phill means nothing to me. Please, I don’t want any trouble this morning. Is just one of those moments at work, I happen to meet a customer who probably charmed me because the guy is not caring, not fine, not romantic and doesn’t love me yet I can’t seem to get him out of my head. I’m begining to think he did something to me, maybe he charmed me through a diabolic means. Even has a wife and kids… that’s how crazy it is Louise. I need prayer because this is not ordinary. Maybe is from the ice cream he brought for me and I innocently ate it. Talking about it now I feel a little free. That’s the truth…”

He looked at me for few minutes and said

“Indeed, you’re charmed if that’s the case. I don’t want this madness to repeat itself again so try to uncharm yourself before something worse happen. Has he taken you out before… have you slept with him…”

I told him that none of that happenend

“I believe you but prove it, 

“How…?  I replied uncertain of what exactly he meant.

He said he will show me how.

 Louise pulled off the towel tied around my chest and pushed me to the bed.

Fifteen minutes later he was done, satisfied and stood to dress.

I endured, didn’t make a sound and neither did I resist.

It’s not longer new, the way he treats me like a hārlot but I’m still left in his mercy

I felt more hatred and disgusted for him but I didn’t say a word.

“, Before getting to work make sure you stop at a pharmacy and get some meds to prevent pregnancy for yourself. I know you’re naive and stupid, you must be told what to do Everytime yet you act like you’re smart, but in the actual sense you are dumb….”

I quietly entered the bathroom and washed off, when I came out he was still there.

I immediately started dressing hurriedly.

“… another thing is that no matter who the man is or whatever excuses you probably got for him please don’t let this happen again. You’re not permitted to move or relate with any other man romantically. Except if you are foolish and wants to see the other side of me. I’m very nice April but I hate to be toiled with. Respect both my presence and absence please, mingling with any man on whatever ground you may place it is cheating and disrespect and I won’t tolerate such from you…”

He was still talking when I got dressed and was about leaving when he asked.

“Hope you heard everything I said…”

“Yes, I heard you…”

“Good. Don’t forget to get the drugs at the pharmacy. I don’t want to hear any pathetic story of how you went throwing up or having cramps because you suspects pregnancy. You’re big enough to take care of yourself in that regards. So please, do the needful… hope you understand?

“Sure, I’m clear on that…”

I looked over at where my broken phone lay in pieces on the ground. I made attempt to go retrieve.

“Hey… what are you doing, where do you think you’re going?

“I want to pick my phone…” I replied pausing close to where the phone is.

“What for, so that you will find another means and continue communicating with your Phil?

“Is a broken phone Louise, I want to see if it can still work. How are we going to communicate without a phone. You won’t be able to reach me and I won’t be able to reach you. I will probably take it to a repairer to fix..”

“Fine, go ahead and take it…” He finally said.

I put the phone in my bag and left.

I stopped by at a pharmacy and get some drugs.

I was very late to work that day, I gave excuses for coming late to work and my boss happen to be around.

“April, you know already that you’re among the staff here that I admire. Always punctual, neat and very customer friendly. You are among the workers that won the best staff of the year. Many staff here looks up to you, they want to follow in your footsteps. Coming very late to work without a call and your line wasn’t going through is not a good thing. You’re the image of the company and need to be at your best at all time. If there is any reason that you had to come in late please try to put a call across. I will excuse today’s behavior but please let it not happen again…”

I was trying very hard to fight my emotions and hold back myself from crying.

I managed to thank her before going into the changing room to change into my working uniform and that was where I broke down and started crying

I released all the emotions that I have been holding in and allowed the tears to flow.

When I felt a little free I wiped off my face, got ready to face the day.

Within that day I try to turn on my phone but it wasn’t coming on again.

I borrowed my colleagues phone to make a call.

I try calling Phil because I had his number in my head but his number still wasn’t going through.

I finally made up my mind that Philip was a history and is time to face reality and move on.

Being strong and fighting whatever battle that I will have to face from now onwards alone and Louise is one hëll of a battle I will have to fight with everything I got until he is defeated.

(Do not take credit or Plagiarize AMAH’S HEART stories)

Three weeks became four then five and the six week arrived scaring me on each passing day.

Initially it was flowing well but all changed later.

We were not communicating like before, he was cold and hardly pick his call or reply my messages.

I was truly worried and then scared that something bad had happened to him.

I was panicking as i couldn’t think straight on exactly what was going on

What if he was done with me and doesn’t want to have anything to do with me

He can’t just come into my life and mess it up like this.

Although I had nothing to loose but I had already fallen for him totally.

Philip is one of a kind and I will be so Damned if I miss such a man.

Maybe the money he sent was a goodbye gift. I never even thought of that until now.

Did I offend him without knowing or was it because I refused to allow him to come and see my so-called uncle that doesn’t even exist.

Or did he happens to know about Louise?

He probably did his findings and found out that I was living with a man who happens to be my boyfriend.

“No… no, he can’t possibly know that…”

 My guilt will torment my conscience day by day. Although I still feel tortured but I can cope knowing well that Philip knows absolutely nothing about me.

I was almost loosing my mind thinking about Philip.

I became moody and lost appetite.

Nothing interest me at all. I try to forge ahead and not let anything about Philip pull me down emotionally but nothing was really helping.

“What is wrong with you…” Louise asked one day

“Nothing, I’m fine..” I replied

“No, you’re not  fine. I noticed you are just mooping around like a shadow. Something is definitely eating at you… and you know you can tell me anything right…”

I looked up at him, expressionless and angry that he wouldn’t drop the topic

“… you can tell me anything April because I care….”

That was an actual lie, Louise doesn’t care one bit he was only being inquisitive, he really wanted to know what was happening in my life and I’m not ready to spill a thing.

“I’m fine Louise, please just leave me alone. Thanks for caring…”

I walked into the room to try Philip’s number hoping he will pick but as usual it was not going through

I decided to send a message, after sending the first one, I sent another and waited but no reply came.

This was it for me. I will delete his number and everything about him.

I will try to forget about him so that I can move forward because thinking about him, calling and texting him without getting a reply makes me want to cry.

Maybe, I will give it few more days and I will never call him again

He can’t be toiling with my emotions.

That following morning, while I was in the bathroom getting ready for work i began to wish I know his office or where he lives.

If I do I could have visited, paying him an unexpected visit may not sit well with him but he left me with no choice.

I finished from the bathroom, stepped into the room and there Louise was seated on the bed checking my phone.

I rushed to drag my phone from him but he pushed me away, I lost my balance and fell down.

He didn’t say a word as he continued checking.

I stood up to face him.

“Who’s Phill?

I didn’t say anything, he approached me and repeated the question

“Is a nobody..”I replied still standing.

“It doesn’t seem like a nobody to me, you have been communicating with him for sometimes now and I know you must have deleted some old messages too. But this last one you sent you were begging him to pick your call. Let me read out some of it “tell me what I have done wrong Phil, please reply or pick my call because I’m going crazy thinking of you…”

Louise read it out from the phone to me and I was quiet without trying to defend myself.

“…..so who’s is Phil I ask you again?

“Is a nobody. I replied again

“He angrily smashed my phone on the walls and said “stop toiling with me April, for the last time who this Phil, you call, text him and begging him to reply you because you’re going crazy..? So he’s been the reason for your recent bad mood. You’re cheating on me? Are you seeing another man? You’re seeing another man under my nose…? April, answer me because if you don’t your head will be the next thing I will smash…”

I was afraid but I try not to show it. I wanted this moment to pass because I was scared of what Louise will do next.

“I’m not seeing another man Louise. You’re my only man and Phill means nothing to me. Please, I don’t want any trouble this morning. Is just one of those moments at work, I happen to meet a customer who probably charmed me because the guy is not caring, not fine, not romantic and doesn’t love me yet I can’t seem to get him out of my head. I’m begining to think he did something to me, maybe he charmed me through a diabolic means. Even has a wife and kids… that’s how crazy it is Louise. I need prayer because this is not ordinary. Maybe is from the ice cream he brought for me and I innocently ate it. Talking about it now I feel a little free. That’s the truth…”

He looked at me for few minutes and said

“Indeed, you’re charmed if that’s the case. I don’t want this madness to repeat itself again so try to uncharm yourself before something worse happen. Has he taken you out before… have you slept with him…”

I told him that none of that happenend

“I believe you but prove it, 

“How…?  I replied uncertain of what exactly he meant.

He said he will show me how.

 Louise pulled off the towel tied around my chest and pushed me to the bed.

Fifteen minutes later he was done, satisfied and stood to dress.

I endured, didn’t make a sound and neither did I resist.

It’s not longer new, the way he treats me like a hārlot but I’m still left in his mercy

I felt more hatred and disgusted for him but I didn’t say a word.

“, Before getting to work make sure you stop at a pharmacy and get some meds to prevent pregnancy for yourself. I know you’re naive and stupid, you must be told what to do Everytime yet you act like you’re smart, but in the actual sense you are dumb….”

I quietly entered the bathroom and washed off, when I came out he was still there.

I immediately started dressing hurriedly.

“… another thing is that no matter who the man is or whatever excuses you probably got for him please don’t let this happen again. You’re not permitted to move or relate with any other man romantically. Except if you are foolish and wants to see the other side of me. I’m very nice April but I hate to be toiled with. Respect both my presence and absence please, mingling with any man on whatever ground you may place it is cheating and disrespect and I won’t tolerate such from you…”

He was still talking when I got dressed and was about leaving when he asked.

“Hope you heard everything I said…”

“Yes, I heard you…”

“Good. Don’t forget to get the drugs at the pharmacy. I don’t want to hear any pathetic story of how you went throwing up or having cramps because you suspects pregnancy. You’re big enough to take care of yourself in that regards. So please, do the needful… hope you understand?

“Sure, I’m clear on that…”

I looked over at where my broken phone lay in pieces on the ground. I made attempt to go retrieve.

“Hey… what are you doing, where do you think you’re going?

“I want to pick my phone…” I replied pausing close to where the phone is.

“What for, so that you will find another means and continue communicating with your Phil?

“Is a broken phone Louise, I want to see if it can still work. How are we going to communicate without a phone. You won’t be able to reach me and I won’t be able to reach you. I will probably take it to a repairer to fix..”

“Fine, go ahead and take it…” He finally said.

I put the phone in my bag and left.

I stopped by at a pharmacy and get some drugs.

I was very late to work that day, I gave excuses for coming late to work and my boss happen to be around.

“April, you know already that you’re among the staff here that I admire. Always punctual, neat and very customer friendly. You are among the workers that won the best staff of the year. Many staff here looks up to you, they want to follow in your footsteps. Coming very late to work without a call and your line wasn’t going through is not a good thing. You’re the image of the company and need to be at your best at all time. If there is any reason that you had to come in late please try to put a call across. I will excuse today’s behavior but please let it not happen again…”

I was trying very hard to fight my emotions and hold back myself from crying.

I managed to thank her before going into the changing room to change into my working uniform and that was where I broke down and started crying

I released all the emotions that I have been holding in and allowed the tears to flow.

When I felt a little free I wiped off my face, got ready to face the day.

Within that day I try to turn on my phone but it wasn’t coming on again.

I borrowed my colleagues phone to make a call.

I try calling Phil because I had his number in my head but his number still wasn’t going through.

I finally made up my mind that Philip was a history and is time to face reality and move on.

Being strong and fighting whatever battle that I will have to face from now onwards alone and Louise is one hëll of a battle I will have to fight with everything I got until he is defeated.

(Do not take credit or Plagiarize AMAH’S HEART stories)

Three weeks became four then five and the six week arrived scaring me on each passing day.

Initially it was flowing well but all changed later.

We were not communicating like before, he was cold and hardly pick his call or reply my messages.

I was truly worried and then scared that something bad had happened to him.

I was panicking as i couldn’t think straight on exactly what was going on

What if he was done with me and doesn’t want to have anything to do with me

He can’t just come into my life and mess it up like this.

Although I had nothing to loose but I had already fallen for him totally.

Philip is one of a kind and I will be so Damned if I miss such a man.

Maybe the money he sent was a goodbye gift. I never even thought of that until now.

Did I offend him without knowing or was it because I refused to allow him to come and see my so-called uncle that doesn’t even exist.

Or did he happens to know about Louise?

He probably did his findings and found out that I was living with a man who happens to be my boyfriend.

“No… no, he can’t possibly know that…”

 My guilt will torment my conscience day by day. Although I still feel tortured but I can cope knowing well that Philip knows absolutely nothing about me.

I was almost loosing my mind thinking about Philip.

I became moody and lost appetite.

Nothing interest me at all. I try to forge ahead and not let anything about Philip pull me down emotionally but nothing was really helping.

“What is wrong with you…” Louise asked one day

“Nothing, I’m fine..” I replied

“No, you’re not  fine. I noticed you are just mooping around like a shadow. Something is definitely eating at you… and you know you can tell me anything right…”

I looked up at him, expressionless and angry that he wouldn’t drop the topic

“… you can tell me anything April because I care….”

That was an actual lie, Louise doesn’t care one bit he was only being inquisitive, he really wanted to know what was happening in my life and I’m not ready to spill a thing.

“I’m fine Louise, please just leave me alone. Thanks for caring…”

I walked into the room to try Philip’s number hoping he will pick but as usual it was not going through

I decided to send a message, after sending the first one, I sent another and waited but no reply came.

This was it for me. I will delete his number and everything about him.

I will try to forget about him so that I can move forward because thinking about him, calling and texting him without getting a reply makes me want to cry.

Maybe, I will give it few more days and I will never call him again

He can’t be toiling with my emotions.

That following morning, while I was in the bathroom getting ready for work i began to wish I know his office or where he lives.

If I do I could have visited, paying him an unexpected visit may not sit well with him but he left me with no choice.

I finished from the bathroom, stepped into the room and there Louise was seated on the bed checking my phone.

I rushed to drag my phone from him but he pushed me away, I lost my balance and fell down.

He didn’t say a word as he continued checking.

I stood up to face him.

“Who’s Phill?

I didn’t say anything, he approached me and repeated the question

“Is a nobody..”I replied still standing.

“It doesn’t seem like a nobody to me, you have been communicating with him for sometimes now and I know you must have deleted some old messages too. But this last one you sent you were begging him to pick your call. Let me read out some of it “tell me what I have done wrong Phil, please reply or pick my call because I’m going crazy thinking of you…”

Louise read it out from the phone to me and I was quiet without trying to defend myself.

“…..so who’s is Phil I ask you again?

“Is a nobody. I replied again

“He angrily smashed my phone on the walls and said “stop toiling with me April, for the last time who this Phil, you call, text him and begging him to reply you because you’re going crazy..? So he’s been the reason for your recent bad mood. You’re cheating on me? Are you seeing another man? You’re seeing another man under my nose…? April, answer me because if you don’t your head will be the next thing I will smash…”

I was afraid but I try not to show it. I wanted this moment to pass because I was scared of what Louise will do next.

“I’m not seeing another man Louise. You’re my only man and Phill means nothing to me. Please, I don’t want any trouble this morning. Is just one of those moments at work, I happen to meet a customer who probably charmed me because the guy is not caring, not fine, not romantic and doesn’t love me yet I can’t seem to get him out of my head. I’m begining to think he did something to me, maybe he charmed me through a diabolic means. Even has a wife and kids… that’s how crazy it is Louise. I need prayer because this is not ordinary. Maybe is from the ice cream he brought for me and I innocently ate it. Talking about it now I feel a little free. That’s the truth…”

He looked at me for few minutes and said

“Indeed, you’re charmed if that’s the case. I don’t want this madness to repeat itself again so try to uncharm yourself before something worse happen. Has he taken you out before… have you slept with him…”

I told him that none of that happenend

“I believe you but prove it, 

“How…?  I replied uncertain of what exactly he meant.

He said he will show me how.

 Louise pulled off the towel tied around my chest and pushed me to the bed.

Fifteen minutes later he was done, satisfied and stood to dress.

I endured, didn’t make a sound and neither did I resist.

It’s not longer new, the way he treats me like a hārlot but I’m still left in his mercy

I felt more hatred and disgusted for him but I didn’t say a word.

“, Before getting to work make sure you stop at a pharmacy and get some meds to prevent pregnancy for yourself. I know you’re naive and stupid, you must be told what to do Everytime yet you act like you’re smart, but in the actual sense you are dumb….”

I quietly entered the bathroom and washed off, when I came out he was still there.

I immediately started dressing hurriedly.

“… another thing is that no matter who the man is or whatever excuses you probably got for him please don’t let this happen again. You’re not permitted to move or relate with any other man romantically. Except if you are foolish and wants to see the other side of me. I’m very nice April but I hate to be toiled with. Respect both my presence and absence please, mingling with any man on whatever ground you may place it is cheating and disrespect and I won’t tolerate such from you…”

He was still talking when I got dressed and was about leaving when he asked.

“Hope you heard everything I said…”

“Yes, I heard you…”

“Good. Don’t forget to get the drugs at the pharmacy. I don’t want to hear any pathetic story of how you went throwing up or having cramps because you suspects pregnancy. You’re big enough to take care of yourself in that regards. So please, do the needful… hope you understand?

“Sure, I’m clear on that…”

I looked over at where my broken phone lay in pieces on the ground. I made attempt to go retrieve.

“Hey… what are you doing, where do you think you’re going?

“I want to pick my phone…” I replied pausing close to where the phone is.

“What for, so that you will find another means and continue communicating with your Phil?

“Is a broken phone Louise, I want to see if it can still work. How are we going to communicate without a phone. You won’t be able to reach me and I won’t be able to reach you. I will probably take it to a repairer to fix..”

“Fine, go ahead and take it…” He finally said.

I put the phone in my bag and left.

I stopped by at a pharmacy and get some drugs.

I was very late to work that day, I gave excuses for coming late to work and my boss happen to be around.

“April, you know already that you’re among the staff here that I admire. Always punctual, neat and very customer friendly. You are among the workers that won the best staff of the year. Many staff here looks up to you, they want to follow in your footsteps. Coming very late to work without a call and your line wasn’t going through is not a good thing. You’re the image of the company and need to be at your best at all time. If there is any reason that you had to come in late please try to put a call across. I will excuse today’s behavior but please let it not happen again…”

I was trying very hard to fight my emotions and hold back myself from crying.

I managed to thank her before going into the changing room to change into my working uniform and that was where I broke down and started crying

I released all the emotions that I have been holding in and allowed the tears to flow.

When I felt a little free I wiped off my face, got ready to face the day.

Within that day I try to turn on my phone but it wasn’t coming on again.

I borrowed my colleagues phone to make a call.

I try calling Phil because I had his number in my head but his number still wasn’t going through.

I finally made up my mind that Philip was a history and is time to face reality and move on.

Being strong and fighting whatever battle that I will have to face from now onwards alone and Louise is one hëll of a battle I will have to fight with everything I got until he is defeated.

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Three weeks became four then five and the six week arrived scaring me on each passing day.

Initially it was flowing well but all changed later.

We were not communicating like before, he was cold and hardly pick his call or reply my messages.

I was truly worried and then scared that something bad had happened to him.

I was panicking as i couldn’t think straight on exactly what was going on

What if he was done with me and doesn’t want to have anything to do with me

He can’t just come into my life and mess it up like this.

Although I had nothing to loose but I had already fallen for him totally.

Philip is one of a kind and I will be so Damned if I miss such a man.

Maybe the money he sent was a goodbye gift. I never even thought of that until now.

Did I offend him without knowing or was it because I refused to allow him to come and see my so-called uncle that doesn’t even exist.

Or did he happens to know about Louise?

He probably did his findings and found out that I was living with a man who happens to be my boyfriend.

“No… no, he can’t possibly know that…”

 My guilt will torment my conscience day by day. Although I still feel tortured but I can cope knowing well that Philip knows absolutely nothing about me.

I was almost loosing my mind thinking about Philip.

I became moody and lost appetite.

Nothing interest me at all. I try to forge ahead and not let anything about Philip pull me down emotionally but nothing was really helping.

“What is wrong with you…” Louise asked one day

“Nothing, I’m fine..” I replied

“No, you’re not  fine. I noticed you are just mooping around like a shadow. Something is definitely eating at you… and you know you can tell me anything right…”

I looked up at him, expressionless and angry that he wouldn’t drop the topic

“… you can tell me anything April because I care….”

That was an actual lie, Louise doesn’t care one bit he was only being inquisitive, he really wanted to know what was happening in my life and I’m not ready to spill a thing.

“I’m fine Louise, please just leave me alone. Thanks for caring…”

I walked into the room to try Philip’s number hoping he will pick but as usual it was not going through

I decided to send a message, after sending the first one, I sent another and waited but no reply came.

This was it for me. I will delete his number and everything about him.

I will try to forget about him so that I can move forward because thinking about him, calling and texting him without getting a reply makes me want to cry.

Maybe, I will give it few more days and I will never call him again

He can’t be toiling with my emotions.

That following morning, while I was in the bathroom getting ready for work i began to wish I know his office or where he lives.

If I do I could have visited, paying him an unexpected visit may not sit well with him but he left me with no choice.

I finished from the bathroom, stepped into the room and there Louise was seated on the bed checking my phone.

I rushed to drag my phone from him but he pushed me away, I lost my balance and fell down.

He didn’t say a word as he continued checking.

I stood up to face him.

“Who’s Phill?

I didn’t say anything, he approached me and repeated the question

“Is a nobody..”I replied still standing.

“It doesn’t seem like a nobody to me, you have been communicating with him for sometimes now and I know you must have deleted some old messages too. But this last one you sent you were begging him to pick your call. Let me read out some of it “tell me what I have done wrong Phil, please reply or pick my call because I’m going crazy thinking of you…”

Louise read it out from the phone to me and I was quiet without trying to defend myself.

“…..so who’s is Phil I ask you again?

“Is a nobody. I replied again

“He angrily smashed my phone on the walls and said “stop toiling with me April, for the last time who this Phil, you call, text him and begging him to reply you because you’re going crazy..? So he’s been the reason for your recent bad mood. You’re cheating on me? Are you seeing another man? You’re seeing another man under my nose…? April, answer me because if you don’t your head will be the next thing I will smash…”

I was afraid but I try not to show it. I wanted this moment to pass because I was scared of what Louise will do next.

“I’m not seeing another man Louise. You’re my only man and Phill means nothing to me. Please, I don’t want any trouble this morning. Is just one of those moments at work, I happen to meet a customer who probably charmed me because the guy is not caring, not fine, not romantic and doesn’t love me yet I can’t seem to get him out of my head. I’m begining to think he did something to me, maybe he charmed me through a diabolic means. Even has a wife and kids… that’s how crazy it is Louise. I need prayer because this is not ordinary. Maybe is from the ice cream he brought for me and I innocently ate it. Talking about it now I feel a little free. That’s the truth…”

He looked at me for few minutes and said

“Indeed, you’re charmed if that’s the case. I don’t want this madness to repeat itself again so try to uncharm yourself before something worse happen. Has he taken you out before… have you slept with him…”

I told him that none of that happenend

“I believe you but prove it, 

“How…?  I replied uncertain of what exactly he meant.

He said he will show me how.

 Louise pulled off the towel tied around my chest and pushed me to the bed.

Fifteen minutes later he was done, satisfied and stood to dress.

I endured, didn’t make a sound and neither did I resist.

It’s not longer new, the way he treats me like a hārlot but I’m still left in his mercy

I felt more hatred and disgusted for him but I didn’t say a word.

“, Before getting to work make sure you stop at a pharmacy and get some meds to prevent pregnancy for yourself. I know you’re naive and stupid, you must be told what to do Everytime yet you act like you’re smart, but in the actual sense you are dumb….”

I quietly entered the bathroom and washed off, when I came out he was still there.

I immediately started dressing hurriedly.

“… another thing is that no matter who the man is or whatever excuses you probably got for him please don’t let this happen again. You’re not permitted to move or relate with any other man romantically. Except if you are foolish and wants to see the other side of me. I’m very nice April but I hate to be toiled with. Respect both my presence and absence please, mingling with any man on whatever ground you may place it is cheating and disrespect and I won’t tolerate such from you…”

He was still talking when I got dressed and was about leaving when he asked.

“Hope you heard everything I said…”

“Yes, I heard you…”

“Good. Don’t forget to get the drugs at the pharmacy. I don’t want to hear any pathetic story of how you went throwing up or having cramps because you suspects pregnancy. You’re big enough to take care of yourself in that regards. So please, do the needful… hope you understand?

“Sure, I’m clear on that…”

I looked over at where my broken phone lay in pieces on the ground. I made attempt to go retrieve.

“Hey… what are you doing, where do you think you’re going?

“I want to pick my phone…” I replied pausing close to where the phone is.

“What for, so that you will find another means and continue communicating with your Phil?

“Is a broken phone Louise, I want to see if it can still work. How are we going to communicate without a phone. You won’t be able to reach me and I won’t be able to reach you. I will probably take it to a repairer to fix..”

“Fine, go ahead and take it…” He finally said.

I put the phone in my bag and left.

I stopped by at a pharmacy and get some drugs.

I was very late to work that day, I gave excuses for coming late to work and my boss happen to be around.

“April, you know already that you’re among the staff here that I admire. Always punctual, neat and very customer friendly. You are among the workers that won the best staff of the year. Many staff here looks up to you, they want to follow in your footsteps. Coming very late to work without a call and your line wasn’t going through is not a good thing. You’re the image of the company and need to be at your best at all time. If there is any reason that you had to come in late please try to put a call across. I will excuse today’s behavior but please let it not happen again…”

I was trying very hard to fight my emotions and hold back myself from crying.

I managed to thank her before going into the changing room to change into my working uniform and that was where I broke down and started crying

I released all the emotions that I have been holding in and allowed the tears to flow.

When I felt a little free I wiped off my face, got ready to face the day.

Within that day I try to turn on my phone but it wasn’t coming on again.

I borrowed my colleagues phone to make a call.

I try calling Phil because I had his number in my head but his number still wasn’t going through.

I finally made up my mind that Philip was a history and is time to face reality and move on.

Being strong and fighting whatever battle that I will have to face from now onwards alone and Louise is one hëll of a battle I will have to fight with everything I got until he is defeated.

(Do not take credit or Plagiarize AMAH’S HEART stories)