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  • June Break-Episode 12

    June Break-Episode 12

     

    JUNE BREAK

    June Break-Episode 12


    I used the fifth stick and it was the same, no changes.
    “Negative… negative…all negative. I’m not pregnant, thank you Jesus… I’m not pregnånt…”
    I exclaimed happily. It felt like a miracle. I have already zeroed my mind from fear and ready to face whatever the outcome will be.
    It felt so good that I began to jump excitedly.
    I was too happy that immediately Louise returned back I couldn’t keep the news.
    I told him that I wasn’t prégnant.
    “I knew it. you know I told you that you’re not pregnant, but because you don’t trust me enough you kept doubting. Now that you have confirmed your curiosity, I guess is all settled. Anyway, I’m equally happy that it wasn’t pregnancy because you would have still end up removing it…”
    I don’t know if I should be happy with his remark or angry but none of it matters though. I was too happy to pick offence in his sarcastic comment.
    Going forward, I pray such act from Louise never occurs again. 
    Anything that will scare me and make me worry the way I did  won’t happen again.
    I prayed to God to help and protect me from such hürt.
    After then, Louise went back to his caring and loving self.
    He will even call me at work to know how I’m feeling. If he comes back from work before me he will prepare lunch, dish out mine and kept it waiting for me.
    He takes me out during the weekend, our outing is always fun and entertaining.
    Along the line I get carried away a little.
    There are days I will love him and kept smiling and wishing we were already a couple instead of living as lovers.
    But there are other days I couldn’t wave off his stinking personality. All I think of is how much he hurt me.
    Even though he has asked for my forgiveness and I let him know that I have forgiven him.
    Although he tried to make up for those bad days but I can’t help but hate every thought of it. Those days Louise becomes a threat and enemy in my head.
    I will begin to think he probably has a negative motive behind his recent nice behavior. He can’t possibly be acting all nice all of a sudden without any bad hidden plan.
    Trusting him during such time becomes hard. I will hate his person and all there is to him.
    I wish we weren’t living together, how happy and free I will be
    If I had my money with me, I could have either leave the house for sometime, get a small place for myself or go stay with Ella who has a very small place that she shares with her sister.
    Right now, i don’t have access to my money. Louise is in charge and he also calculate my transportation in a month and give the total monthly transport fare.
    The small tips I sometimes get at work I use it to support, get food whenever I’m hungry at work and buy few things whenever needs arises.
    He will always ask me how much tips I usually get at work and I will tell him.
    He will tell me if the money is big, i should make sure I give it to him so that he can continue saving for me.
    He was saving all my money carefully for my future.
    For my school and other expenses that comes with it.
    Louise said that I will squander it, spend it carelessly if the money remains in my custody.
     Which was why he has taken it upon himself to be in charge of all my financial records.
    At first I loved the idea and really bought into because I trusted him but after the last incident, when he forcefully had me to his satisfaction, bruising me in the process. I sustained not only physical wound but also emotional which I kept battling with. After what he did to me, I no longer trust him or feel safe with him.
    But there are days I just want to be loved and pampered and whenever Louise offers, I accept without much thought to it.
    He will make me relax on his shoulder whenever we’re at home watching movie.
    This was the Louise I wished for, this was exactly what I want in my man. The love and care he was showering looks suspicious but I didn’t care I only wish it continues.
    We shared kisses and few romantic moment but that was all to it because I was still scared of really getting intimate.
    I was scared of his dark side. I wasn’t truly safe but I pretended and I was good in my acting. Making him believe I was reciprocating his affection.
    After few more weeks passed, I was coming back from work one day, while at the bus stop waiting for bus, a car drove and stopped in front of me.
    He called my name, when I looked into the car it was Philip.
    I was very happy to see him, he asked me to come in.
    I hesitated a little before joining him.
    He talked about how he waited for my call, how he never stopped checking the bus station anytime he drives pass.
    He asked me why I didn’t call him, I told him is because I misplaced his business card.
    I remember how Louise shred the business card into tiny pieces, even if I decided to gather it up and take out the number it will be impossible.
    The lie suit perfectly fine and Philip didn’t appear angry or suspecious.
    He asked me if I live with my parents or maybe a relative.
    I was stuttering at first because I couldn’t come up with a lie.
    I can’t possibly tell that him I live with a supposed boyfriend, who I no longer trust. Philip may never want to talk to me again.
    He will keep a distance and that will be the end.
    “I stay with my uncle… like elder..cousin brother..”
    I finally said to Philip. He smiled and asked if my uncle is too strict because he will like to visit me sometime but that will be if I’m okay with it and if my uncle approves.
    He asked if my uncle is a married man or single.
    I told him that he is married with two kids. “My uncle is difficult to please and does not like me keeping friends, especially opposite sex. So he may not approve of your visitation but I will get back to you, Let me confirm from him first. But as for me, I’m okay with you visiting but it won’t be right away. Let me get to know you better first…”
    He gave me his number and took mine.
    We were conversing so well like I have known him for years.
    He dropped me close to the house and promise to call.
    I walked to the house and Louise was around.
    He welcomed me with a kiss that taste so awful.
    He rubbed my sensitive parts like I was his hārlot
    I sometimes distaste his show of affection because deep down I know he doesn’t truly care.
    He has a way of mishandling my body that makes me feel dirty.
    Deep down I wish there’s a way I can get my money and escape from him but he doesn’t seem he was ready to hand over the money yet.
    Maybe it was all a mistake to have agreed for him to be in charge of every dime I receive
    I freshened up and he told me that he prepared dinner.
    Nodded quietly with a heave.
    He asked if I won’t thank him for making dinner for me.
    I muttered a cold “thank you” to him.
    As I was heading to the kitchen, my phone began to ring, it was Philip calling.
    (Do not take credit or Plagiarize AMAH’S HEART stories)
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  • June Break-Episode 6

    June Break-Episode 6

     

    JUNE BREAK

    June Break-Episode 6


    The first weeks was quiet tough, it was difficult coping in my new environment.
    No matter how much I try to forget home I can’t seem to forget.
    Louis was able to get the job and was mostly away during the first two months leaving me alone in the house.
    That was the toughest period of my life but I was able to cope through.
    I try to occupy my mind with movies.
    Louis was making sure I had enough food and drinks, movies and phone game.
    He got me an Android, I was only playing game with it because I don’t have contacts to save in it.
    Louis was the real definition of a gentleman
    He permanently made the sitting room his sleeping place.
    I told him that we can share the room but he said he will rather decline.
    “Is risk enough that I agree to take you along to the city when you asked, living with me still does not give me right over you April. Your people may even accuse me of forceful kidnaping. As much I understand the huge risk that was involved in this whole thing, I was ready to do the little i can to make you happy April. I just wanted to see you happy…I felt your sadness and hurt each time you complain about the way you were been treated at home. You know I love you right? and my love for you has nothing to do with your beauty or body, I like your personality… and love you like a sister. The same way I will treat my kid sis is same way I will treat you April. You’re special with great potential. I may not be able to give you everything you need but I will keep trying my best to make sure I do the little that I can for you…”
    I smile and replied.
    “Thanks Louise, I appreciate. Maybe I should go look for job instead of staying home and doing nothing. What do you think?
    “I don’t think that’s a good idea. Like I said that I will try my very best to make sure you have food and every other necessary things. You’re too young to be out there, is a dangerous world April and the risk as a teenager is high. I want to protect you from the world danger…”
    I smile. It feels good listening to him say those words but I don’t fully agree with him.
    “You can’t protect me because life itself is a risk. If I don’t take the risk I took I will still be home. I will be turning eighteen soon, so I’m not a kid. Forget the fact that my parents treated me like a maid, delayed my entry to the university, make me feel less of myself…but in all this I know my right and what I want out of life. Food and shelter is not just the only thing I need. I need to discover myself Louis. I need to start working so that I can be able to save up for school. Because I still want to go to the university and I need money for that to happen. I love and appreciate everything Louis but I didn’t run away from home to come and eat and sleep in your house. I want to discover myself now and not go home the same way I came. The mockery will be doubled….”
    He stared at me in disbelief when I told him that i don’t want to go back home the same way.
    I was grinning.
    “You’re smart and intelligent April and that’s why I love you…”
    The following week I started searching for job.
    Louis helped me to get my CV done
    I submitted my CV in any vacant work place I came across.
    I later got a job as a marketer, it was a new product. My job is to go around introducing it to different companies and market people.
     
    Is more like a contract job, the  more people buy from me will determine how much I get at the end of the month.
    Louis try to talk me out of it, saying is stressful, dangerous and time consuming.
    He mentioned that men will start checking me out with promises at the end it won’t worth it.
    He also said why they employed me as a marketer is because I’m a beautiful young girl and many people will want to listen to me easily when I try to introduce the product to them.
    I told him that I just want to explore and the Job looks like what I can do.
    I thought his only concern was because of other men checking me out which I was ready to handle.
    But after three weeks, I was so stressed out plus other little troubles I had to face during the marketing job.
    Louis was the one giving me transport fare and I know is not very easy on him because it was just few months he started working in the new place.
    My joy was I will soon get my own salary and I wouldn’t have to depend on him for transport fare.
    But after six weeks I know I had to stop.
    I quit without getting paid. They said I didn’t bring much expected customer.
    It was supposed to be from the proceeds that I will get paid but since I was poor in my duty no payment for me.
    That was not true at all. I did well on the job despite the difficulties I encountered. I was able to bring lots of customers to them through that short period.
    They were taking advantage of me while enriching themselves.
    Truthfully, it was not the kind of marketing job I wanted but I still put in my best but got nothing in return.
    I was pained because my whole effort was in vain and Louis was right at the end.
    I started another job hunt relentlessly.
    Louis also promise to look out for any good opportunity.
    I got one as a customer care, more like a sales representative in a big supermarket and resumed right away.
    I’m hoping this time will be different.
    I started off on a wrong foot, I will do all I can to make it on the right foot this time around.
    That was how my journey kicked off.
    (Do not take credit or Plagiarize AMAH’S HEART stories)
  • June Break-Episode 4

    June Break-Episode 4

     

    JUNE BREAK

    June Break-Episode 4


    I couldn’t fully make up my mind on what exactly to do.
    Anytime I thought I’m fully ready to take the bold step and leave one thing or the other will hold me back and is mostly my homely upbringing.
    My parents tried their best in making sure their children doesn’t come out wayward or gangster types and all we ever did is to make them proud and to assure them that we won’t be influence by worldly lifestyle. 
    Well, that’s exactly how much I respected my parents but their attitude towards me continued giving me a head strong to change that narrative.
    As much as I want to be the good girl they wanted me to be, I hate to be their second best
    I don’t want to be unappreciated or overlooked in my own home.
    I want to be where I will be appreciated and noticed.
    I don’t want to be a second choice and I’m only still here because I’m hoping my parents will truly change.
    Louis asked me to make up my mind fast because he needs to leave soon and the reason why he kept delaying is because of me.
    I asked him to give me just a week and after then I will give him feedback if I’m staying or travelling to another city with him.
    A week was too much but he agreed to stay.
    Actually, I was afraid to just take off like that and I wish I can get enough reason to stay back home
    I was ready to ignore all the special affection showered on Rachel.
    After all she was my kid sis and she deserves to be treated with love. There shouldn’t be any competition to that but I wish I can sometimes get a pinch of the whole care. 
    But then is alright, maybe with time my parents and every other person will also learn to notice and appreciate me.
    I try to console myself with this thoughts and was already planning to inform Louis that I won’t be going with him anymore.
    We can keep a distance relationship and nothing will change. 
    It was insane to just leave my family and disappear. 
    I want to go to school under their watch and care, become a woman my parents will be proud off.
    Leaving may devastate them or probably not but I don’t have the nerve yet to leave.
    This was my whole thought until the last straw hit me in a bad corner.
     Rachel was exempted from doing dishes and any household chores because she will be writing exams soon. She needs to really prepare while I was placed to do all the house chores despite how tired I am must time I return back from work.
    I also had a university exam I needed to prepare for too but no one is considering that.
    My sister will eat and come dump in the sink for me after I’m done washing and cleaning the entire kitchen.
    She will use a whole lot of plates at once, mess up the kitchen and then come into the room where I’m trying to study to inform me that there’s dirty dishes I need to go and tidy and the kitchen needs cleaning.
    I told my mum but she said I complain too much
    My dad will not even pay me attention whenever I come to him.
    I only have night time to read for my exam
    Rachel was gladly frustrating my life and no one will call her to order.
     So even if I fail is none of their business but they can’t afford for Rachel to fail because she remains their favorite.
    I have had enough, I can’t take this anymore. 
    Louis will be leaving for the big city tomorrow and although I have informed him that I won’t be going again, I have a change of mind.
    I called and told him not to leave without me.
    I packed few important things into a backpack to avoid looking suspecious.
    I took one last look around the house before stepping out.
    As I was about walking out of the gate I thought of dropping atleast a written note.
    I slowly walked back to the house and ran into my Mom coming out of the kitchen.
    “I thought you were gone already, you forgot something?
    I nodded as I kept walking
    She called my attention again and said.
    “April, Don’t forget to return home early, the laundry needs to be done. Especially your sister’s two weekend wears are there and I know she will be using one of them this coming Saturday. She mentioned her friends will be coming around and she needs to look good. Try and be home early to do the laundry, ironing and other chores. I can’t be doing certain things when I have a grown woman like you in the house. So aside the laundry you will also be making dinner. Also remember to bring home some snacks from the bakery for your sister’s friends who will be visiting her on Saturday… hope you understand?
    I made a funny smirk face and replied
    “Yes Mom… totally”
    I walked back to my room write few words in a paper, wrap it up and dropped it on the bed before finally walking out without looking back.
    (Do not take credit or Plagiarize AMAH’S HEART stories)
  • June Break-Episode 2

    June Break-Episode 2

     

    JUNE BREAK

    June Break-Episode 2


    “April… April… wakeup… April..”
    That was my second elder brother’s voice tapping me awake.
    Mark had always had this loving caring nature but he can be so annoyingly too.
    They say is normal for siblings to get in each others nerves sometime.
    That wasn’t different from my siblings.
    I opened my eyes, my seventeen years old self actually dozed off in our sitting room. 
    I looked up at Mark and saw his long face.
    “What happened?
    “Why did you take the money I kept under my pillow?
    I try to sit up because he looks like he was ready for trouble.
    “What money…I didn’t see your money Mark…”
    “April, I kept that money for a purpose and you have no right to go into my room and take it. this isn’t the first time and is no longer funny that you have become a thíef and nothin is safe in this house any more…”
    “Uhmmm Mark, first of all I did not go into your room or take your money.. secondly, I’m not a thíef, is better you stop calling me that or I will tell Mom. Go and look for your money and leave me alone…I have never taken anything that is yours before without asking you first…”
    I was standing to his face as I voice out my own annoyance. It angers me that he had to call me a thíef. I’m the last person that will go around taking people’s things without thinking.
    I can’t wait to get into school. I would have been in the university by now but I had delay and since last year I finished high school I have been home hoping and waiting.
    Maybe that is why they can accuse me as they please. 
    It used to be Rachel always asking or searching for her stuffs which she kept carelessly and now Mark had joined the queue.
    Who knows who else will follow next.
    “Rachel told me that you were the one that took the money… she saw you go into my room this morning…”
    “, She’s lying… Mark. Believe me I never went to your room or take your money. I have never done that…”
    He looks confused but someone still have to take the blame and Rachel was the little sweet princess who can do no wrong.
    While I on the other hand takes most of the blames.
    If Rachel does something and I will be blamed for it.
    Is sad but there was no escaping.
    Mark did not want to escalate the issue he angrily walked away.
    I felt so bad and went out to look for Rachel.
    She was no where to be found.
    She supposed to be back from school looking at the time.
    Is already  4pm. Maybe she had after class lesson’s to attend to.
    She was in senior high school, she got promoted twice in school making her skip some classes and now she was about to graduate at age thirteen.
    She seems to be getting all the favor even from God, my parents, siblings and general public.
    She was the most favored.
    I never mind before but recently I can’t help but feel bad.
    I wish I was the last born of the house who still gets the attention and care.
    Everyone thinks I’m grown, unlike Rachel who will always be the baby of the house no matter how old she was.
    If I have to be sincere, sometimes I wish she wasn’t born but I’m still grateful to have a sister.
    Immediately I saw her, I didn’t fail to ask her why she told Mark that I was the one that stole his money but she didn’t answer me.
    Even when Mark said I should drop the issue, I didn’t listen.
    “You can’t go around telling people that I steal when you never even caught me once. Except you stole it and looking for who will be the scape goat and I perfectly fit into the idea of a thíef as usual. Stop that nonsense Rachel…is no longer funny. don’t take my quietness for granted because next time I will react and you may not like what I will do.This is all expensive jokes and I’m not finding it funny anymore…be warned…”
    Her eyes was fixed on the television and she did not even turn to look at me or reply.
    Whenever this sort of thing happens she will become speechless and not having any word to defend herself but on a normal day Rachel is always defensive.
    She likes playing the victim every time she did something wrong.
    This was part of my ordeal in the house and it all started after Rachel was born.
    My parents heard of the missing money and you can guess the first person their eyes was focused on, me off course.
    “I’m raising you all to be better in life… don’t allow the dëvïl to use you and bring shame to us and to yourself…”
    “… April, if you’re the one that took Mark’s money return it and never you do that again. Whenever you need something you ask me or your mother. At your age you should be a good example to your sister. Rachel behaves well and I know she can never do such a thing as taking what is not hers. Please… for God sake, stick to the good morals that holds this family together. I don’t want to hear anything like this again… hope I’m clear”? My dad scolded.
    I try to defend myself that I wasn’t the one but none of them are ready to believe or even listen.
    I went to my room to suck like a child.
    It was very painful and I couldn’t just keep quiet.
    As I went to join my Mom in making dinner that evening, I raised the topic, hoping she will believe and all she said was.
    “April, no one is accusing you. But look at it this way… your elder brother David is out in the UK studying, Mark is in school and also helps your Dad’s friend in his electrical engineering shop during holidays, the little money he gets he saves it for  his future plans, is very unfair for anyone to go and take it. It makes it seems like nothing is safe again in this house… which calls for worries. Your sister is small and not the type that will take something that isn’t hers…”
    “Mom, Rachel is almost thirteen… she is not a baby. Why not ask her too before looking at me as the black sheep. What if she was the one that took the money but blamed it on me so that she will remain the little princess…” I said to my Mom while cutting the onions.
    “Let’s not turn this into argument April, just stick to the warning. Don’t take what is not yours. Ask whenever you’re in need of something…”
    I couldn’t win this, no matter how I try. It was a total waste of time.
    And that was how I accepted what I never did.
    I’m not trying to play saint but this was how the politics run in my house and I hate it.
    This was the reason June became very important to me but we’re on a long way to getting there.
    I want to tell you everything before you judge me without knowing the whole story.
    (Do not take credit or Plagiarize AMAH’S HEART stories)